Just Lost

[bear_face_]

I'm lost...just got of a psyche ward today. And I don't get my meds till tomorrow or Friday. but even when I start taking those meds. will **** just fall into place? Gosh I sound so ******* naïve I'm sure there is more that I have to do to get through this but I don't really know...despite me being in that ward...I hate feeling this bull****. I feel so ******* nihilistic about life.. Not suicidal at all. not even unhappy. Just numb...hypocrite to say the least.

[OntoBetterDays]

Hi there. You aren't alone. I'm suffering from some severe anxiety and a bit of despair but I know that there is always hope. Its hard to engage in life when the motivation is not there but you must try to take that first step back into life. You can still lead a productive useful life.

[RockClimbing]

I’m sorry for how you’re feeling. I can’t offer advice other than to say... I listen to books on audio. It fills my mind with something else besides what is going on in my mind already. I listen to happy books and I imagine the story. It helps me to forget about my stuff for a while.

[bear_face_ in reply to RockClimbing]

Thank you so much for the reponse! I do enjoy reading on my free time!

[Agora1]

Hi bear_face_, when I got out of the psyche ward, I too felt lost for a while.

The unit is so structured that it gives us a sense of security as well as having

24/7 support. Even when you take your medication, it usually takes therapy

along with it in order to address the root of your anxiety. I also had that numb

feeling, neither happy nor sad but I was on a lot of medications when I got out.

That doesn't mean it needs to be a forever sentence. After getting out, I started

back on my therapy and worked in finding other methods that would compliment

my therapy. I used everything I had learned in the hospital as well as finding

other modalities that would allow me to go forward and not stay stuck in a rut.

I used YouTube in learning about different forms of meditation including Self Hypnosis,

Mindfulness, Breathing, Affirmations, Visualization etc. Finding the one/ones that

worked for me and then making it a practice to use it every day.

It's been over 7 years since I've been out of the hospital. I meditate 3x a day. Morning,

midafternoon and night. I also do deep breathing which helps lower adrenaline rushes.

There are so many things to use depending on what works for you as well as how much

you are willing to help yourself get better. I'm glad you found this site and look forward

to seeing you interacting with others who are going through the same struggles.

We live and learn together. Welcome to this great forum xx

[Hidden]

I found great peace and contentment in reading and studying theology. I am not saying you need religion but it sounds like you are searching for meaning and purpose. It’s as old as time. Everyone wants to know the meaning of life.