I'm not sure where to start here. I thought this would be easier it being anonymous and all, but that's not the case. Sharing was never a strong point in my family and affection was often saved for holidays or special occasions, so opening up is going to take time. For now I'll just say i have struggled with depression on and off for 17 years, and anxiety attacks for about 3 now. This is the worst the depression has ever been and I'm basically just lost. I've never looked to support groups or anything like that before and I'm not even sure what I'm expecting to get out of it. I just feel like I'm sinking and weights are being thrown on me, pushing me deeper into the abyss. I don't have many friends and can't really talk to my family about any of this. And I know people often suggest medication but I've tried a few different ones before and I don't want to go that route again. I know I haven't offered much info and it's hard to help someone when they don't even understand themselves what It is they're feeling, but regardless, if you took the time to read this I appreciate it. Maybe just venting will help take the pressure off my chest some so I can breathe a little easier.
Thanks again for reading this.