Sometimes I think dying would be easier.

[97Bunny11]

Maybe then, all these thoughts would stop.

I can stop worrying if I'm ever gonna meet someone.

And if I do, will I be in a loveless marriage or not?

Will I regret it?

Will I regret the rest of my life if I choose to never meet someone

to avoid heartbreak?

Will life as a whole work out for me?

Will I always be this sluggish and stay in bed?

Will I ever reach my full potential?

Will I ever be "happy?"

But then I stop to think about it.

I've always hated DNFing a book and never reading

to the end. Even when it's so insufferably boring (looking at

you, Albert Camus.... No offense).

Whenever I start cooking something, even though

it's not looking too good, I continue through the recipe 'til

the end (and then maybe toss it if the taste is too bad).

And even though I sucked at running, I never left

a race unfinished.

Even though taking my life right now seems so

easy and delectable right now, I know that I'd

be leaving one of the greatest books ever written

unfinished.

That would kinda suck.

I feel like we're getting right to the good

part too.

I can feel it.

Life is tiring.

Even when your life isn't chaotic

or crazy. It can still be tiring.

But even when the clouds take over

the entire sky, I still look up to

find that small patch of blue; telling

me to fight.

It's telling you to fight.

So keep fighting.

[CLB1125]

well said. At 65 my book is coming to the last chapters. I’m still waiting for the happy ending. Somehow I think it’s going to be a dud. ☹️ But like you I will have to see it to the end.

[Hidden in reply to CLB1125]

Hello you two no one's is a fairy tale no happy endings there's always problems in life I used to worry about this that the other still do now I'm worrying about mam n pixie dying instead I'm making the best of the time we have together life is so short, I've had many bad chapters but there's been good pages in them.chapters, we can try writing our own chapters and dreams and try making them happen,poster I'm.sure there's people that care about you and it would destroy there life if you ended yours, life's short don't waste it worrying, I always had hope and I have a new chapter recently started got my dream home some 22 years on dreams can come true, but I believed my dream and went for it, no soul mate but I think myself v lucky I have lovely nebours a lovely mum and cat, family friends,I'm still pretty healthy try foccusing on the positives, poster forget about a man foccus on a career give the fate people a helping hand 🤗

[Dolphin14]

You have shifted your thought process at the end. This is the way to go.

For all the negatives in our life there are positives. We just have to look for them. It's hard to see the light through the clouds

Keep fighting

🐬

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Hello dolphin yes our self talk can change our life's I know it's hard when a dark cloud is hanging over us to see the blue sky beyond but its there it comes eventually 😊🌈

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Yes

Our light will shine through.

❤️🐬

[97Bunny11 in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. I will! You take care of yourself, Dolphin