Sometimes I think dying would be easier.

[97Bunny11]

Maybe then, all these thoughts would stop.

I can stop worrying if I'm ever gonna meet someone.

And if I do, will I be in a loveless marriage or not?

Will I regret it?

Will I regret the rest of my life if I choose to never meet someone

to avoid heartbreak?

Will life as a whole work out for me?

Will I always be this sluggish and stay in bed?

Will I ever reach my full potential?

Will I ever be "happy?"

But then I stop to think about it.

I've always hated DNFing a book and never reading

to the end. Even when it's so insufferably boring (looking at

you, Albert Camus.... No offense).

Whenever I start cooking something, even though

it's not looking too good, I continue through the recipe 'til

the end (and then maybe toss it if the taste is too bad).

And even though I sucked at running, I never left

a race unfinished.

Even though taking my life right now seems so

easy and delectable right now, I know that I'd

be leaving one of the greatest books ever written

unfinished.

That would kinda suck.

I feel like we're getting right to the good

part too.

I can feel it.

Life is tiring.

Even when your life isn't chaotic

or crazy. It can still be tiring.

But even when the clouds take over

the entire sky, I still look up to

find that small patch of blue; telling

me to fight.

It's telling you to fight.

So keep fighting.

[CLB1125]

well said. At 65 my book is coming to the last chapters. I’m still waiting for the happy ending. Somehow I think it’s going to be a dud. ☹️ But like you I will have to see it to the end.

[Dolphin14]

You have shifted your thought process at the end. This is the way to go.

For all the negatives in our life there are positives. We just have to look for them. It's hard to see the light through the clouds

Keep fighting

🐬

[97Bunny11 in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. I will! You take care of yourself, Dolphin

[Dolphin14]

Yes

Our light will shine through.

❤️🐬