Power switch

[Jack112288]

I wanna stop thinking my thoughts always get the best of me and I HATE it I wanna think like a normal person(what’s that?) I try to think positive because I don’t won’t my anxiety to kick in or I fall into a depression I no longer take my meds The last time I took them I got sick so I laid off the medicine for a while I think I’ll be okay if I stop thinking so much I try to plan things out and I know it’s not gonna go that way I try to think positive but things never turn out so good I just want this person that makes me happy but I know him coming around won’t keep me happy I’ll end up hurt and sad he agreed to stay away if he’s not gonna be committed 100% and that’s great but he’s also someone I have fun with(not sex) he has a good personality we laugh talk play and fight(not physically) but I miss him and I wanna stop thinking about him I wanna let go and move on WHERE DO I START

[AnIslandOfPeace]

I don't know if "start by really moving on" makes sense but I think you should get a grip of yourself and understand that your happiness doesn't lie on your friendship with anybody. Of course there are great friends but when they leave, we owe it to ourselves to let go and adapt to a life without them. Find new friends if you must, it's just normal. I hope you feel better, please feel better. Kisses.

[Jack112288 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

He’s a little bit more then a friend lol but I get what your saying 100% I’m trying my best to stay busy I finally applied for jobs I got 3 call backs and I’m staying busy around the house to try to keep from overthinking or checking my phone so much it’s helping now I have to work on staying sleep at night

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Jack112288]

Wait, I don't get the last part. You don't get enough sleep?

[Jack112288 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

No I wake up and stay woke it’s hard going back to sleep

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Jack112288]

Alright. Be fine please.

[jocie609]

I have to say that I can identify with the wanting to think normal thoughts. I try to be positive as well but sometimes it doesn’t work. Then I have to find a way to distract myself so that I can enjoy the rest of the day. As far as the other part of your post, I’m not good at ending relationships. I usually hang on until they stop talking to me.

[Jack112288 in reply to jocie609]

See that’s not me I don’t reach out at all I leave that door open for him and the hard part is closing and keeping it that way

[jocie609 in reply to Jack112288]

Yes that’s what I’m saying...I don’t reach out either but depending on what relationship it is, sometimes even if the conversation stops, the door may still be open if they react out to me or I decide to reach out to them.

[Jack112288 in reply to jocie609]

Ok that’s what I’m dealing with with this person I don’t know how to close the door and leave him on the outside of my life

[jocie609 in reply to Jack112288]

I sent you a message

[Jack112288 in reply to jocie609]

I got it 🥰

[Sabio77]

hi jack112288, I would like to suggest that you be careful stopping and starting meds on your own. it is very hard on the body and can really mess up your organs unknowingly. please consult with your doctor first. if you did that great. just wanted to put the word out there.

[Jack112288 in reply to Sabio77]

Yes I always take to the doctor first lol but thanks for looking out for me