Idk what to do anymore..

[kitkat0502]

I lost my friend yesterday to drowning during the school day and I feel so so empty, I keep pushing away people I’m trying not to push anyone away but I am to my main crush I might lose him all together if I don’t change on myself I’m making him irritated etc I’m trying to grieve on losing my friend yesterday, I’m trying to fix my depression so that way I don’t lose my crush and plus he still believes I’m not over my ex and he wants me to talk but I tried to just now but won’t talk to me kept saying “ no comment” I’m trying to find love that loves me specially that tells me I’m worth it and special..... I’m sitting here in the bathroom crying realizing I am a broken person and that I can’t do anything right anymore I kinda wanna commit Bc wats the point anymore?

I can’t do anything right.

I push people away.

I’m trying to grieve over my friend that died yesterday.

I’m trying not to lose my main crush.

I’m trying to fix my depression/ anxiety.

I’m trying to be happy.

I’m trying to take care of others also me.

I’m trying not to b broken anymore.

I’m trying to work on myself so I can let go.

So far no success, I just wanna commit.

[MsLockYourPosts]

KitKat - grieving is a process, with many stages. You have just lost your friend. It is normal for you to feel overwhelmed. Ask if there are grief counseling groups near you. A friend found grief counseling very helpful when trying to deal with the loss of her husband. If there is more than one option, try different ones until you find a group that you are comfortable with. Working through your grief will help you put other things in perspective. I know that there are many things that you do well, but it’s hard to recognize those things in ourselves when we are hurting.

[kitkat0502 in reply to MsLockYourPosts]

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[JAYnLA]

Are you in North Carolina by chance? I just saw a post in my Facebook feed about a young person drowning at a high school in my home town.

[kitkat0502 in reply to JAYnLA]

Yes it was at page High School

[JAYnLA in reply to kitkat0502]

I went to Grimsley. So sorry to hear that it was your friend who passed. Be gentle with yourself. There is no 'right' way to feel when going through something like this.

[kitkat0502 in reply to JAYnLA]

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[InSearchofSelf]

I just read your post and my heart goes out to you. I am sorry you are going through all that. It makes sense because your friend just died unexpectedly. It is what happened that is messed up and not you. I have had multiple people in my life die unexpectedly and it has taken therapy work for me to heal and not irrationally blame myself or think there is something wrong with me. I am rooting for you and your healing.

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry to hear about the sad loss of your friend.

You will be experiencing many very sad emotions right now, I’m sure it’s difficult to try to even think around other stuff, understandably, we all cope differently, and react differently, take care of you and take time the time you need..hope you can reach out for some support as and when you need too.

🌹🌹🌹 xxx

[kitkat0502 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you I really appreciate it❤️

[Walkathon]

I’m very sorry for your loss. I recommend putting everything else to the side and focus on grieving the loss of your friend, crushes and other people etc can wait. Do what is most important first, recognising and dealing with your grief, have a good long cry, it’s very sad what happened to your friend and deserves your full attention. Everything else can be sorted out afterwards, I wish you all the best. 🌷