Been struggling with my symptoms

[Mike7777]

Everyday has been the same. I feel so close to blacking out and dont want too. I feel detached. I feel like im losing blood internally because of my physical symptoms. Im seeing the GI on the 13th but cant wait. Its a struggle to have a bowel movement and its like a burning sensation even when sitting down on my bum. Blood when i wipe. Alot of gas. Before the gas and bowel movements are extreme periods of weakness. Head pressure and slight headaches on the back of my head. Its awful guys. The fatigue is insane and these symptoms all add to my depression. I have to take ativan in order to function or leave the house. I just want to see if anyone experiences the same for reassurance. ...

[jocie609]

I'm sooo sorry that you are experiencing these issues...Please know that you are not alone...we are here for you...

[Dolphin14]

You are going through a lot. Can't you move your md appointment to an earlier date?

[brokenagain]

I was on Ativan for about a year and a half and if anything it helped me fall asleep. I do not do well on antidepressants but Ativan allowed me to turn my mind off at night. I hope this helps !

[Mike7777 in reply to brokenagain]

What was your dose? And did you take it everyday

[brokenagain in reply to Mike7777]

It was a very low dose maybe 5 mg and I had to take it every night. All of these drugs have different results and some work and some do not. Before I was prescribed it my former Endocrinologist had prescribed the antidepressant Celexa but all she said that it was a medicine that would relax me. She should have told me what it really was but after being on Celexa for 3 weeks, I never felt better in my life but my sleeping habits were still awful. I looked up what Celexa was on the internet and realized that I was on an antidepressant. I was upset but the faith I had with this Doctor was great so I let it go. 3 months after starting Celexa, it just stopped working and I almost committed suicide. I got no help for my doctor and she then lied her way out of the whole thing by stating that she told me everything about the medicine but that I must have forgotten. I try not to hate but as far as I am concerned, she can go rot in hell. Last summer I was institutionalized for serious depression and I was considered suicidal. Since then, I have been on 5 different antidepressants and none have worked. I am now receiving Transcranial Magnetic Simulation which is a program where Magnetic impulses are directed into my skull with the results being that neurons in the brain get activated which helps the brain use all of its paths in thinking. It is a bit hard to explain but just google TMS and you will get a better explanation. I do not take antidepressants that well so I am hoping that this helps. It is a 6 week program and I have only had 2 sessions but what I have read it has some good review. It is expensive but I have reached the end of the line in trying to dig out of this depression.

Good Luck !