I've got to get this under control

[dbeck128]

My health anxiety is controlling me at this point. It has me thinking I'm dying everyday. I cant afford therapy. I cant self soothe. I try so hard to ignore it but the thoughts don't stop and once they start they eat at me until I give in and freak out. It's not fair to live like this. I am not going to stop fighting but damn I cant live like this. i dont even know why I'm on here ranting again. I'm just fed up

[greenyartist]

Thank you for coming here to rant!! KEEP RAGING against this anxiety! You've obviously got a fighting spririt and won't let this win

[dbeck128 in reply to greenyartist]

Thank you. My soul just gets tired sometimes and I dont understand why I'm being punished with this mind game..

[Hidden]

Hey I'm sorry nothing is really working, try to let the thoughts happen and work through them instead of fighting it.. it sounds weird but it kind of works, you have to train your brain with positive experiences, like I remember the post about your ankle. Did anything bad happen or was it just anxiety overreacting? Build off of these scenarios when you let the anxiety go, and in the end nothing actually comes of what you’re anxious mind was telling you was going to happen.

Keep posting when you’re overwhelmed, it always helps to let it out

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

What sucks about this is the symptoms are so real. How do I accept "I'm going to die"? It sucks. I am convinced i have cancer because my neck is stiff and my lump in my neck wont go away. My brain feels like its buzzing and I get these bad headaches. I cant ignore these symptoms.

[Hidden in reply to dbeck128]

I’m sorry. I can see the difficulty with this, its a technique my therapist suggested to me at one point that worked for me, but at the time I wasn’t thinking i was going to die. Cancer would be the worst case scenario, so try your best to think of, something like maybe its just a headache and the anxiety is making the symptoms worse or more apparent.

[Anthese]

At what circumstances do you experience symptomps usually?

[dbeck128 in reply to Anthese]

Every day. Any time. Theres nothing specifically that triggers it. It's just a life style for me. But it gets worse at night because I have nothing to focus on..

[Lizz1989]

Im going through the same and I’m on here to read and learn from people like you is comforting to know we’re not alone with these feelings and I can say that it’s helping me by thinking I’m not the only one with this debilitating symptoms and what’s helping get through this is a book called DARE by Berry McDonagh I bought it from amazon was like less than $6 my doctor was the one who told me about it I highly recommend it

[dbeck128 in reply to Lizz1989]

Yes. You are NOT alone. We are in this together. I hope we find how to control this. It sucks. What triggers you? Has the book helped? It's like I've googled anything what good does a book do...you know?

[Lizz1989 in reply to dbeck128]

I learned how to not care if I get a panic attack or anxiety u just learn so much from it to the point that u don’t get as scared when u experience anxiety or depression and when I feel like anxiety is coming I just re read certain chapters it has a 5 star rating from other people that suffers from anxiety as well it’s really helpful

[Coralrose5]

Don’t give up! Have you tried medication to ease the physical symptoms?

[dbeck128 in reply to Coralrose5]

Xanax. I dont like taking it. Makes me tired and I hhhhhatttte being sedated.

[seekjoydaily]

So sorry you are dealing with this much anxiety. Do you have a primary doctor you can reach out to for help? Are you currently taking any meds? If they are not working for you, talk to your doctor and see if they can prescribe something different for you. It takes time to find the right combination sometimes that actually helps one's individual symptoms. You mentioned that you cannot afford therapy. There are sometimes agencies/counselors that offer income-based fees or sliding scale fees for those with low incomes. I encourage you to check them out. Again, you can reach out to your primary doctor for referrals. You may also want to check out this link for referrals. bit.ly/2DS3v7S Keep fighting, don't give up and seek help! There is hope!