Sudden fright , health anxiety, life’s pressure ..

[Kevin160]

These past few weeks were bittersweet, i finally stopped getting constant anxiety , but i still would get physical symptoms , i would hear some of my relatives died which caused anxiety to me , it triggers my health anxiety , i feel fearful of dying , i also had many fights with my family , i had many nosebleeds that were severe that i needed to cauterize my nose and i was very panicky during that time because one of the times i bled out so profusely i almost passed out and was feeling very cold , but i would always feel better after any panic or anxiety feeling ... i just suddenly heard someone i know died , i just had the hardest heart palpitation , that was about 10 minutes ago and i fear that im going to die from it , you know the usual ..,i hate my life sometimes ...im just sick of this , im not asking for much when i just want to have a but of peace of mind

[Serendipityone]

I get these similar symptoms !!!

It messes with my head, knowing i get physical symptoms of anxiety when not really feeling anxious! 😣

[Kevin160 in reply to Serendipityone]

Yes which is very frustrating because i celebrate the progress and sometimes i feel that all my hard work is not paying off when i suddenly get a panic attack over silly things like a doctors appointment ..and i constantly feel like im going to die , i go to sleep hoping i wake up the next day .. because when i try to convince myself its anxiety sometimes i dont succeed

[Kimberlake]

I know your pain. I am sorry you feel this way. I pray you find strength to overcome your health anxiety.

[Kevin160 in reply to Kimberlake]

Thank you so much for your kind words ❤️

[Hidden]

I read a book from a Catholic friend, finding and maintaining peace. I go to that book over and over again. I am not Catholic, but it does help.

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

Maybe i can check it out, thanks for your feedback

[Hidden in reply to Kevin160]

Correct title is searching for and maintaining peace. Sorry for the error. Author is Father Jacques Philippe.

[onthetrail]

I know that feeling of getting bushwhacked by symptoms when you thought you were feeling better. I always felt like it was subconscious or bodily habits. Over time you can build new habits. And I remember what it was like to just want a little space and peace. You have a right to that. For me, at the time, the merry-go-round was my own creation. It took a some time to make it stop spinning, but I eventually did. Fear of death to some extent is natural for us all. May be hard to see right now, but that fear can be transformed to make us value our lives and live them fully. Be well.

[Kevin160 in reply to onthetrail]

Yes i know fear of death is normal, but to me it was obsessive it was all i thought about , and i based everything in my life towards other people, of i heard someone died in their sleep, i would fear that, i heard someone developed a mental disease , i fear developing that , my mom got cancer when i was just 10 years olds, and even before that i had mild health anxiety and fear of doctors and surgeries etc... but after my mom’s diagnosis it became worse, and whenever you hear of anything you just think , there countless diseases, disorders, mental and physical factors that can affect your life, the odds are pretty big that something is wrong with me , and i just want to find something to get anxious about , i can go weeks with no anxiety which im proud of now , but sometimes its hard to be calm for more than a few hours and its frustrating because i know anxiety, and my health , and things that make me worried like exam results , family struggles , stuff like that are worthless in comparison to my fututre because its nit worth it ,, but sometimes its hard to control

[Kevin160 in reply to onthetrail]

Thank you so much though, for all your kind words and advice and reassurance ❤️

[at123]

Kevin, I'm so sorry to hear about the pain and worry you're experiencing. While I haven't experienced your symptoms, I struggle with anxiety. Do you have someone you trust who you can talk to about this? When I talk with someone about my anxiety struggles, I have found it is so helpful and relieving.

Remember that you're not alone, and please know that I am praying for you, friend.

[Kevin160 in reply to at123]

I trust many people to talk to about this and i did , i just dont trust anyone to help , i told my mom who didnt really seem to care or think it was serious, maybe she thought it was just attention seeking , she has always been a good mom , but life wasnt very kind to her and now when it started to get better to her she is living it to the full and maybe because she feels all her kids have grown up she needs to care less , not sure what she is thinking but ever since her camcer diagnosis , she has been very different , my sister tried to help but it didnt work , because they all treat me like im small , and it just makes me regret it because they assume the guy must always be strong and some dumb shit like that ..i cant tell you how many times they treated me poorly because of it ...