The good streak ended

[admirablesloth]

I feel like I was really getting somewhere.

It felt like a good couple weeks where I was in a great mood, defeating all the boundaries my social anxiety created.. going on these anxiety ridden adventures and talking to people I never thought I’d get to know more. I felt normal for a little bit and people treated me normal, but now I feel like I’m back. I’m back to being disorganized where everything I said I’d do I just lost interest in yet I had all these amazing plans with the things I wanted to do?? A week ago I was going to take over. I was going to go to school and practice driving and study for a work contest and blah blah blah. Now I’m back to square one I feel, I’ve felt too anxious to drive, I’ve felt too anxious to do all the things I thought I’d gotten past. I know it’s me. I know I only have control of the things I do, but where did this funk come from.. being comfortable in my safe bubble? I know I’ll be okay but damn is it annoying to feel I need to start again.

[Hidden]

Setbacks happen I know the feeling.

[admirablesloth in reply to Hidden]

Yeah they can suck. Especially when they last a while

[sweetiepye]

You won't be starting over , you will be continuing from where you left off. Very different. As we start to get to recovery it seems these demons want to see if we're really serous about taking our lives back or maybe we were just testing the waters. Now is the time to come out fighting and show what you are. Blast through this little setback and make it your bitch. I know I'm going to hear about that b word, well so b it. Pam

[admirablesloth in reply to sweetiepye]

Yesss thankyou, you’re absolutely right. I need to remember to tell myself that! It always feels like square one, and I’m so quick to become negative about it when that’s the most important time for me to be strong and fight back to take back the progress I worked so hard to make. Great advice 💕

[Hidden]

Agreed with everyone....I'm finally in the middle of what I'm dubbing a "winning streak" of good days. They still aren't some utopia or free of stress, but I'm handling everyday a lot better than my prior "losing streak". I know eventually something will give a bit, but I try to remember these moments for when setbacks or the streak loses wind. We just accept, reconstruct, and keep working towards the good days/times. Keep your head high; it truly seems like you have the right frame of mind and a great attitude given how easy it can be to dwell. You're in a better spot than you think and hopefully the good streak comes back along and you're back to rocking it. Take care and hope the positive vibes return swiftly.

[admirablesloth in reply to Hidden]

Yup you’re so right. What’s life if it was always so set in stone and full of only good streaks?? These “losing streaks” are what will really define our strength and character. I love the way you phrased that though because you’re right, we must keep working towards that winning streak again and after all that works been put in, imagine how sweet that next winning streak will be. Thanks so much ☺️

[JAYnLA]

I hear you. Yesterday was great. Today sucked. It's not a straight line, this recovery thing, and the more I accept that the less I freak out when a difficult patch arrives.

[admirablesloth in reply to JAYnLA]

Yess I always find myself forgetting bad days will come and that’s life, it’s how we choose to handle it. Better days will come but it just takes time. 💕

[jls4001]

I am new to this group and working hard to get through a nasty bout of anxiety and panic, but one of the kindnesses I am giving myself is the reminder that progress is not always linear. Just like several people above mentioned. It’s not a failure or a start over, it’s just another step in your progress. And knowing you have had these good days can help with knowing what you’re feeling today isn’t permanent. Better days are coming.

[admirablesloth in reply to jls4001]

So true, that’s one thing about life in general is that nothing is ever linear and clear cut. Sometimes our anxiety and depression pressures us to feel awful when it’s not, yet that’s just how things work and this is the time to be stronger than ever. Thanks for your response tho you’re absolutely right ☺️

[HopeWithSmile]

I don't think you will start over. You are going forward. It is just a little stop.

I know this feeling. Don't let it consume you! Continue to power through!!!

xx

[admirablesloth in reply to HopeWithSmile]

You’re right we must always push forward from these setbacks. We can’t ever let this feelings of negativity win!! Thank you 💕

[onthetrail]

When I went through a breakdown, I remember having these overly optimistic spells where I was going to fix or improve my life with a bunch of positive projects. Then I'd get overwhelmed and crash again. I think that might just be another aspect of working through mental illness. Be realistic about the goals you set for yourself. It seems much healthier to achieve a few small victories each week for a while, until you're ready to tackle larger things. It can also take more energy than you realize at the time just to achieve those small goals, so be kind and patient with yourself.

[admirablesloth in reply to onthetrail]

Ugh this is the story of my life lol. My goals tend to be unrealistic, but i know i need to take baby steps in order to accomplish those big ones. I’ll probably start writing down small goals and take it little by little. Great advice tho thank you sm ☺️