I was raised by my grandparents both have long passed away. My grandfather in 1996 my Grandmother in 1999. I think of them everyday. I know it wasn’t easy for them because they worried about what would become of me. I didn’t do well in school, I never participated in sports or joined a club. I was a definition of a wallflower. After HS I went to community college but dropped out. I bounced from job to job. And eventually settled into photography and I was very good at it but I had a difficult time making a living. It turns out Im very creative but not very business savvy. I’m just not very aggressive, which is a trait needed to make it as a photographer. All the while I lived with my grandparents who always supported me. I think of them everyday, I love them and missed them so very much.
I just can’t make it in life. My girlfriend died in 2010, my father in 2014. Since then I’ve gradually become more and more lonely. My life is literally falling apart and I barely get by. I don’t sleep well, I have depression, and I’m always worried. And yes I think about ending my life. Does any of this resonate with someone?
Thank you for your words of support in the past.