Feeling so alone because of anxiety/depression

[Tamka39]

I’ve been meditating read my Bible reading the big book reading books about Alcohol reading books on Anxiety ooking up everything on YouTube do online groups talking to different people on different apps and Still I feel so stuck. I really don’t know how long I can continue to struggle like this my mom and family is living they doing everything I wish I could do and sitting in the car because am afraid to go into the store because I don’t want to embarrass my mom by panicking am so depressed and anxious right now at this moment anxiety makes me hate myself makes me what to get up

[maslater]

Have you seen a doctor? On any medication?

[Tamka39 in reply to maslater]

I see a psychiatrist and am on Prozac for a week

[NCAQuilter in reply to Tamka39]

You are just starting on Prozac - it takes a week or more to feel any effect.Ttake note of how you feel today, check next week against today. You should notice a change, slight, but a change. After 3 weeks on Prozac, I was not caring about anything, good or bad, and close to being a zombie. My Dr changed me to another med that worked quite well. There are several good ones, so Prozac is not your only option.

Let us know how you're doing.

[Tamka39 in reply to NCAQuilter]

Which one did your Dr change u too I been on Prozac for a week and Xanax for anxiety but am afraid to take Xanax because is addictive Did Prozac help with the anxiety or just help with the depression?

[NCAQuilter in reply to Tamka39]

Prozac did not work for me. It made me too sleepy, and not care about anything. I am now on the highest dose prescribable of Wellbutrin for depression, and Abilify to help the Wellbutrin work better, for the last 6 months. After being on Xanax for 2-3 years, in the '90's (I can't remember how long I took it), I went off it slowly, decreasing the amount taken and then increasing the time between each pill. I had no side effects, and came off clean. The Prozac may take some time before you notice any benefit. I took it for 3 weeks, then had to change.

Re the Xanax: I don't have as much anxiety as I had before - hiding under my desk when someone came into the office, to having my husband do all the shopping, etc. During the Xanax, I taught myself a number of work around's, continued the public speaking I love, and became Treasurer of our Chamber of Commerce! I still have a lot of trouble going outside my home alone, even though the closest house is hidden by forest and 1/2 mile away, and the public road is almost 2 miles away. But, I now do all our shopping. All clothes are bought on-line, though. But, lately, I've been outside a lot. The Abilify? Who cares. Something is working! And it started with the Abilify!

Hope you find a solution like I have that works for you. Keep me posted, and ask any questions you have. I'm here for you.

[Tamka39 in reply to NCAQuilter]

Awwww I appreciate it am praying this Prozac works for me am scared to depend on the Xanax because I know is addictive and I just gave up my drinking problem don't want to add a new one am unhappy right now because I feel like can fight the depression but not the anxiety

[NCAQuilter in reply to Tamka39]

Go to mayoclinic.org. They have a very nice discussion about Major Depressive Disorder. I just took a refresher look. Very informative.

I understand your desire not to introduce a potentially addictive element to you body right now. But, think of this. Isn't it better to be addicted to something that helps you, than to something that harms you? I'd ask my doctor about the likelihood of becoming addicted and the process of weaning off. The side effects of Xanax may be much less damaging to your body than the anxiety. The stress of the anxiety can cause lots of physical problems, even death.

I hope this helps calm your mind about medical treatments for your problems.

[Tamka39 in reply to NCAQuilter]

Since u stop Xanax your anxiety is lessen now. How is your depression now and how bad do things get for u to let u know u need more help because am an alcoholic and stop drinking 2 weeks ago and I think I started Prozac to soon and I was still having withdrawals and it made my depression worse I didn’t eat sleep drink it felt like I was paralyze because I couldn’t get off my couch I was there 5 days and everytime I tried to get up I was so breathless and weak and couldn’t even walk to my bathroom because it felt like I was about to pass out because I was so off balance and it felt like I was experiencing derealization and depersonalization it was scary I thought I was dying and I was really To ended it all thank u for sharing your story I appreciate it

[NCAQuilter in reply to Tamka39]

i have never had problems with alcohol, but all three of my brothers have as well as my oldest son. Supporting them through withdrawal really opened my eyes to what alcoholics face. You face quite a challenge. But, luckily for you, this whole group is here to help you. Being depressed and withdrawing is something several have expressed experience with. Starting is the hardest part and you've already done that. Our help and support can make your journey to success less rocky. Lean on us. Tell us about your progress. I, for one, want to walk with you. I feel your pain. And I will support you.

[Tamka39 in reply to NCAQuilter]

I still feel like am off balance and it kinda feels weird I guess got to use of my body again without alcohol because I use to drink to numb all my feelings and now I have to feel everything again but am learning

[Hidden]

You’re not alone... there are good seasons and bad seasons...don’t let the bad season rob you from your good season... don’t give up! And... you are NOT your emotions! They do not define you. You were created with purpose and Every season you walk through is preparation for you to shine at the exact right time. NEVER GIVE UP!

[Tamka39 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you

[itwillbeokay]

I'm glad you're reaching out somewhere for help. Because you aren't alone... And really what you described hits me a deep level. You really aren't alone.

If you want another book to read, try reading the Feeling Good Handbook by Dr. Burns. Or maybe Boundaries by Dr. Townsend. Those two resources have been so helpful to me. Or if you want to listen or watch videos from counselors and experts in the field of psychology, go to newlife.com

[Tamka39 in reply to itwillbeokay]

Thank w

[Tamka39]

Thank u so u take medication

[JustCourtney]

The grocery store is one of my greatest anxiety triggers. The bright fluorescent lights, picking a cart with squeaky wheels (again!) or always feeling like I picked the wrong time to come because *there’s so many people.*

I break into cold sweats and my heart starts racing before even leaving the house.

I can’t tell you how many times I have just walked out of the store, leaving a cart of food in the aisle.

Now, I try to go with someone that has an understanding of my anxiety & helps makes things simple in a chaotic space.

I make sure to write a list before I go so I know exactly what I need, & make it a scavenger hunt for myself as I go through the store. Sometimes I just plug in my earphones & listen to music as I make my way. Four deep breathes every time I push my cart past a person in an aisle.

It’s finding healthy coping skills that work for you to help manage whatever environment you are in. It’s okay to struggle, to have cravings & to panic sometimes, just keep working on it & practicing.

[Tamka39 in reply to JustCourtney]

Proud of u because is still hard for me

[SuzyQ1948]

Tamka was just looking at your post and wondering how things are going for you.

SuzyQ

[otoole]

See if you can get hooked up with a cognitive behavioral therapist (CBT) or even a talk therapist. It can help with anxiety and depression.

[lorianxiety]

hi Tamka,i can relate to your lost feeling and effort to try and make yourself feel better ;its such a lengthy slow business and certainly wears you down,however I feel that you can gain relief from bible ect, and words of comfort from those who do understand and show some compassion.UNfortuneately,my only means of communication is via thHunlocked which is fine if you can get someone to listen at the moment I can do with others .to chat with and hope you can join too.hoping your pain lifts soon!

[2manyyrs]

Could you go to a mental health nurse practitioner to get something for the panic attacks snd aniexty?