New here but not to depression

[CB285206]

I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I never have. All I know is that I go through these mood swings and sometimes they can be close to debilitating. It’s not something I’m comfortable talking about because it makes me feel uncomfortable and crazy and I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m guessing there’s something not right with my head and all I feel like is a burden on people. I get sick easy, my stomach sucks, my headaches come and go and are unpredictable. I’m just sick of not feeling well all the time. I try to push through it but sometimes it’s just hard. I don’t want to always go to the bathroom or always complain about my stomach. Everyday I hope something will change but I know it won’t. Nobody I have ever seen has been able to actually tell me what’s wrong. I have trouble sleeping and staying asleep and I always feel tired. I’m not sure if any of this makes sense because it doesn’t make sense to me. I just want you to know that this is something wrong with me, not with you. I’m sorry that I am this way. I don’t want to be. I just want to be normal but I’m not and I feel trapped.

[pink83737]

Hi welcome to the forum! so happy to have you here ☺️ please know that you are NOT alone ❤️ hugs to you

[CB285206 in reply to pink83737]

Thank you so much!

[8L0ND1E]

So many of us feel these things. It sounds to me like you have anxiety? The stomach issues is what makes me believe this. Have you had any bloodwork done with your doctor? There could be some underlying issues...

On the other hand, it could just be nervousness. Do you ever notice yourself thinking about the same thing over and over uncontrollably? I’m not a licensed psychologist however I have studied the subject and have LOTS of personal experiences.

You are not alone. We are here to listen, and will give you as much guidance as possible. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You’ll be okay. Just breathe. Share. It’s so “easy” to just sit in your own head all day and ponder. Don’t be a prisoner of your own mind.

God Bless- X

[CB285206 in reply to 8L0ND1E]

I have had lots of bloodwork done. Everything comes back fine and I’m “healthy.”

Thank you for taking the time to reply to me!

[8L0ND1E in reply to CB285206]

Absolutely🙂glad to hear that you are healthy!

[JkBrauer]

I am sorry that you are feeling this way. It sounds like you are under a lot of stress. How is are eating habbit- nutritious? Are you eating right? Are you getting outside and getting some fresh air and go for a walk? - exercise? Do you get out and socialize with friends and family? - go out for a coffee or lunch? Have you tried getting out and going to church and meeting new people and learning about and praying to God?- Hang in there and never give up! We are all here for you. You are normal, we all have some kind of hang-ups in all of our lives. God bless you!

[CB285206 in reply to JkBrauer]

My eating isn’t the best. I socialize and get out quite often though and exercise frequently. I’m also very into God and the church. Thank you so much!