I feel kind of crazy

[not_always_sad_bean]

I met someone online, and we talked and called for a while so I know it wasn't some catfish situation. I came to trust him. I really liked the guy, I felt close to him and I could 100% be myself because it didn't annoy him. I really tried to annoy him just to see if I could, I failed.

Well he was really into magic and the supernatural. I didn't and still don't know if I believe in it. The whole topic interested me, so he would tell me about it. To see for myself if it was real or not, I tried a demon summoning. The first time nothing happened, no changes in temperature or anything. Then I was going to try spirit walking, but that would have taken a while because I would need to practice meditation. So I tried the summoning again but this time I was going to offer a drop of blood whether anything happened or not.

I couldn't do it. I couldn't hurt myself. Well I did, but it was a weird method and I didn't get much blood. Sooo, due to having a "weak spine," and messing up the summoning with "cowardice and a measly offering," that friend abandoned me and left me to face the demon's wrath on my own.

Nothing has happened yet, so now i'm on the line of not believing and just being really paranoid. But the I can't stop thinking about the "friend" just leaving. Its like haunting me. I miss having someone i can just go to and rant in a 2 page essay about something stupid. I never felt bad for pestering him. Also I actually enjoyed calling him, usually I don't like calls with almost anyone. I just get bored, but not with him.

*sigh*

[hypercat54]

Hi I think this is still catfishing. People like this are very good at taking advantage of lonely people and often you can know them for quite a while but that's how they get their kicks. He was obviously hunting for others who believed like he did and maybe the next step would have been joining a coven or something and dancing naked in the woods! You are well out of this I think.

I find people who mess with things they don't understand or can control are setting themselves up for a fall. I don't believe in demons etc. but I am not saying they don't exist. You would be better off meeting friends in real time rather than on the internet. x

[not_always_sad_bean in reply to hypercat54]

The issue with meeting peolple IRL is that I live in a small town. A small conservative town. And I'm off to college in the fall. There will be tons new oppurtunities but there's just the issue of trying make it through.

[gleason9guy]

My advice is to not make an effort to summon demons. I would also stay away from anyone who encourages you to summon demons. If you can do this, I can tell you that you will surely find more peace in your life than you will summoning demons. That's bad mojo and makes for some real negative karma.

[not_always_sad_bean in reply to gleason9guy]

I dont intend to try again. I'm good. I'll just stay out of all the magic-y things good or bad. I still dont even know if I believe, I've yet to experience any proof.

[Hidden]

He sounds a little crazy,imho. You're likely much better off without him,despite having a good time together initially.

[Hidden]

Sorry if that came out a little blunt. I grew up in a very small town myself and I remember how limited it was for me and my sins at times.

Can you try and get a job out of town for the summer?

Regards,

Greta

[not_always_sad_bean in reply to Hidden]

I get what you mean. I very well could be crazy. Some of the things he told me about could just be a bunch of lies, paranoid schizophrenia, or somehow its all true.

Anywho, I plan to get a job but I dont have a car right now. We're looking but so far schools almost over and we've found nothing, do Idk when I'd actually be able to get a job. Then sometime after I get a car, probably towards the end of the summer, I'll be moving in with my sister and her husband in a slightly larger town.

[Hidden in reply to not_always_sad_bean]

I didn't mean You were crazy at all. I am sorry, really, a poor choice of words on my part.

I grew up in a Christian religious family and my sister was interested in the book of Revelations and I remember thinking it was kind of scary and dark. Lol. I still am looking for God. Maybe this is wise maybe it isn't. But it's what I do. Lol.

I wish you the best.

Greta

[Hidden]

#not sins , sibs

Darn spellcheck