People hate me for being me

Severely brutally bullied at work, and as an empath I don’t know how I’ve made it. My love for those around me is undesired, however frequently embraced by others who may be underprivileged, wounded and in their self absorbed situation(s) and most often at their most critical times of need the love or kindness that I give is, seldom reciprocated, even though I deeply as well am in much need of a hug or kind word, instead, i feel very much that I’m hated instead, because my depression/anxiety/ptsdC disorders are misunderstood and people will get what they want from me and then just run on.

[Kat63]

Is there anyone in your life that you could ask for what you need? Maybe a good friend or even a therapist, and you could say, “I really need to talk to someone. Could you listen to me for a minute?”

[Hidden in reply to Kat63]

I don’t know anyone that even would attempt to understand. I feel unloved, misunderstood. Antidepressant medications don’t work, instead make me worse. I know this is cliche but just wish I’d never been born. I’ve talked to crisis line but often get same questions or responses (sometimes the line is busy and have rang and rang and nobody answers); I guess there are many hurting people out there. It feels like my heart is going to implode inside my chest. I pray I could peacefully die in my sleep and quite often I get very little sleep. So I pray that I’ll just die if nobody can love me the way I am. I try to love myself and to get better and then someone comes along and kicks me down. So what’s the point?

[hypercat54]

Hi you need to show more love and kindness to yourself and stop giving so much. I have found that others sometimes see nice as weak and will abuse you accordingly. Stop being so available to people and attend to your own needs. That's my advice.

Once you value yourself more then so will others and you will attract much nicer people into your life. Set some boundaries and don't let people hurt you like this. x

[numsromeo]

that is how i feel evrysecond of the day. people just call me crazy and think iam exaggerating. no one listens and just tries to change or "fix" me

[Hidden]

People don’t like to see broken people. We’re invisible to pious ones who don’t care.

I just turned 60 and my wife kicked me out because of my mental health illness.

I guess there are a few people in the same boat as we are. Some are in similar boats and sinking in deep seas. Others are on the rocks because the winds and waves of life pushed them there. Some have been rescued. Others drown in their sorrow. I think I’m one of the ones drowning.

Seriously as I’m writing this, my heart feels like it will give out soon, and often I pray that I die in my sleep as life has become too painful. Its brutal numsromeo; very brutal-my family are too far away to really be able to throw me a “lifeline,” my friends have all abandoned or have better things to do then care for or about someone like me. I doubt that I’ll make it through another day as my heart just can’t take the heartbreak anymore. I feel like I’m drowning in a sea of loneliness, severe chronic anxiety, ptsd and depression, and I reach out for help and often get ignored or people don’t understand how critical things have become for me. I wouldn’t wish my life on anyone. If I could and if I had the ability and strength, I would send you a lifejacket, or reach out and try to save you, the only thing I can do is pray 4 u and those who suffer the same.

[Dolphin14]

It's not an easy road we travel. We have to just "ride the wave"

I prefer to be solo with my feelings. If you voice anything to someone they don't have a clue anyways. Would prefer a subject change quickly because they don't want to deal with it.

I'm fine with it now. I'm sick of the negative feedback or the time to move on comments. I don't isolate, I do get out. But my new motto is I would rather walk dogs ( because I love them) than spend time with people.

At least we all understand each other here