Many read my post about the traumatic loss of my dog/best friend. I really appreciated the support you offered. Everyday I’d wake up to some new message of support and it helped me through the week. So thanks to anyone who responded. Even the simple condolences were comforting.
Today we had my school’s graduation. I watched the grade above me, some of whom have been above me since PreK, step forwards into a new life. It really put into perspective that I do still have a future. I still have something to look forward to. My life doesn’t end here, it’s about to just begin. Now the socializing part of the graduation parties was exhausting. Geez I’d forgotten how tiring it was to talk. And I’m at the age where everyone wants to know my life plan so that’s a little stressful to talk about seeing as I have no idea. But honestly overall I enjoyed talking to everyone.
The part I’m most happy about is I got to have a genuine conversation with my cousin. He is a year younger than me so when we were younger we were attached at the hip. I considered him my best friend at one time. Over the years we picked different social circles and kinda lost contact. We saw each other nearly everyday but no real communication happened. Even at family gatherings we talked but nothing stimulating you know what I mean? At the graduation he asked to sit by us because the rest of his family wasn’t going (some of my distant cousins were graduating and his family is kinda feuding with them but that’s a whole other discussion). It was odd because he normally sits with friends but I was for it. It was awkward at first but soon we just started talking. Anything and everything we could think about we talked about. Mostly school but it was still a step forward! I was probably so giddy but it was so amazing for me. I mean I love him very much and want so badly to have a relationship with him. (A familial relationship I might add. I may be southern but that’s nasty). Maybe it stops here but I hope maybe it opened his eyes to the fact that we do have some things in common and can actually be friends.
I just really wanted to share that breakthrough and how my week has been. Thanks again to everyone who responded to my posts. I really really appreciate it.
Xxxxx
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