Question; has anyone ever felt like they don’t want to die but hate living? I had a blissful, beautiful life until I experienced a trauma 2 years ago. I now suffer greatly from anxiety and depression. I adore my family, have the world’s best husband and children, am financially secure, etc...yet the anxiety and depression from the trauma has left me broken. I have tried 3 anti depressants and they only make my anxiety worse. Lorazapem helps but cannot be taken daily and is addictive. I have spent thousands on therapy and it hasn’t really helped. If it weren’t for the fact that I love my family so much, and if I had the guts, I would end it...though I do fear death. I have also tried turning to God and so far no real relief there either. Any thoughts or ideas?
Yes I feel that way toi
How have you dealt with it.
I’m taking medication, in therapy. I used to be able to manage it with eating well, exercising, essential oils etc. but I hit a rough spot this winter so I started meds for the first time.
I feel like I’m fighting for my life each day. I fear that I will eventually commit suicide.
Oh I am sorry...what meds do you take? Every anti depressant that I have taken makes me feel suicidal.
I’m taking Lexapro and buspar.
I don’t know about buspar but I could not take lexapro. It gave me crazy thoughts. Currently, I don’t take anything. Dr wants to try an anti psycotic but I refuse to go down that road.
What kind of crazy thoughts? It hasn’t done that to me yet. I’ve Heard bad things but everyone is diff
Everyone is definitely different. I have a friend who swears that lexapro saved her life. I on the other hand am very sensitive to ssris. The thoughts I had were of hurting myself though I never did.
Oh ok. I had those before I started it.