Question; has anyone ever felt like they don’t want to die but hate living? I had a blissful, beautiful life until I experienced a trauma 2 years ago. I now suffer greatly from anxiety and depression. I adore my family, have the world’s best husband and children, am financially secure, etc...yet the anxiety and depression from the trauma has left me broken. I have tried 3 anti depressants and they only make my anxiety worse. Lorazapem helps but cannot be taken daily and is addictive. I have spent thousands on therapy and it hasn’t really helped. If it weren’t for the fact that I love my family so much, and if I had the guts, I would end it...though I do fear death. I have also tried turning to God and so far no real relief there either. Any thoughts or ideas?