In with the new out with the old rewire your brain 🧠 spring cleaning

[Starrlight]

Feeling kind of like hiding out today. Hopefully it will pour rain soon. It is like shelter. But I reach out here because the feelings and sensations are making me feel bad about myself... why? If my friend is sad I am sad for her /him but I’m not going to love ❤️ them any less. So why treat myself that way? I think when I was growing up showing emotion did not get good reactions from my parents or teachers but that’s in the past and I am in control now. And I am glad I can be there for my kids ❤️ and show them it’s okay to admit and have some not fun emotions and work through them. I am deep breathing through the shameful feelings. Deep breathing through the chest tightness. And into the sick feeling. Letting go. I am accepting that I have had the habit of getting way down on myself and the feelings got stuffed down and repressed. That’s not me anymore though. I just have to remind myself that that’s not how I do things anymore.

❤️ Love you much, people! Hoping you have a great day. If you can, please show love to yourself more than usual today. Breathe In the love out with the hate.

[Sober2007]

Thank you so much for your honesty and your courage. I really needed to be reminded of all that you shared. It's so easy to get down on myself, but we are making progress. I hope you have an excellent day and thanks again!

[Starrlight in reply to Sober2007]

Aww 🥰 thank YOU 🙏 😊

[kenster1]

I feel like in terms of the rain and shelter.done all my housework took the dog a walk now I just feel pretty much down and a bit empty.

[Starrlight in reply to kenster1]

Aww sorry you are feeling emptiness. I wonder what it has to do with? ((((((Hug))))))

[kenster1 in reply to Starrlight]

had a bad week from last Friday for different reasons cant seem to shift it yet.

[Starrlight in reply to kenster1]

Oh yeeeaaah that happens. It will shift. It’s hard waiting but it’s getting closer to lifting. I’m listening if you want to talk more about it.

[Sunnidayz1]

Awesome post Starr. Thank you. It's a very insightful post & Im not surprised coming from you. I always enjoy your posts.

I think we all (whether one has a mental illness or not) have inadequate feelings somehow. And I can definitely understand the feelings u go thru w certain emotions. My parents did not teach these things to me either and that is partly why I suffer w anxiety. I am getting better everyday but I do have the awareness (like u do) to teach my child what I wasnt taught.

Kudos to you for being couragious and working through your emotions instead of beating yourself up for nothing. You are strong and smart❤💗💕💖

XxSunni

[Starrlight in reply to Sunnidayz1]

That’s great that you are teaching your kids to feel their emotions. Each kid is a bit different I often wonder sometimes what approach to take when helping them manage.

I think you are strong and smart too 😊

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Starrlight]

Awe.. thank you!

It's an easy thing to do if we just follow our heart to handle the situation. That's what I do. Words are powerful and if one can find the right way to express oneself everything falls into place. It's not a place for our old baggage to handle but again, our heart (with compassion). If it we were to lead with the baggage, the cycle would continue.

[Starrlight in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Awesome points there yes I agree.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Starrlight]

💖💖💖

[Ragdoll15]

Beautiful picture. There is something about trees that is very calming!

[Starrlight in reply to Ragdoll15]

Yes I think so too. I love the connection felt in nature.

[Sillysausage234]

You have nothing to be ashamed about star 🌠and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Woah. What you said there hit me hard. In a very good way I mean I never realized that I could be without shame. I want to work on that.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

Any artwork 🖼 lately....ps no shame it’s a negative thought process we really don’t need going around in our minds get rid of that one free up more space for peace ☮️

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Haven’t been doing artwork thanks for asking I’ve been focusing on writing but my sister is actually teaching an art class coming up and since well she’s my sister so I’m going I’ll try to enjoy 😉 I just wrote your words on my daily chart Silly 🙃 that I use to record useful info I just love the idea that I don’t have to be ashamed... it may sound simple to some but it’s always been such a big part of my life being blamed taking all the shit for others and just mistreated and not knowing how to be me without being hurt...doesn’t everyone make mistakes but not everyone walks around with shame. Wew! Maybe some day I will be walking a little taller!!!! Yes.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

Well write this too .....everyone in the world 🌍 thinks I am like a breath of fresh air 🌠🖼

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

😂 LOL

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

😊🙋🏻‍♂️

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

😊 🌊

[gerrerd]

Very good ! I think you are changing , a bit more control ! Thats the way x

[Starrlight in reply to gerrerd]

Oh thank you Ray!

[gerrerd in reply to Starrlight]

Your a star ! x

[Starrlight in reply to gerrerd]

I am aren't I?! 😆 😊

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

((((((((( ❤️ lovely Agora ❤️ )))))))

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

Starrlight, Star Bright,

I wish I may, I wish I might

Send you a lovely ((((hug)))) tonight.

Corny but sent from the heart xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

I absolutely love love love it because I love you.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Agora1]

Love that agora 😊x

[gerrerd in reply to Starrlight]

yes x

[newbie56]

We must love ourselves as we love others <3

[Starrlight in reply to newbie56]

Funny you said that because just before I got onto here I thought hmmm I’m alright I need to still put in some work on loving me but am feeling ok about me atm

[JEG325]

You are a bright shining star in my world. I've never been ashamed of anything you've ever said or done. You are my awesome friend. I understand being upset about how you feel. But, along with me you have many others who care for you here. We will all stand behind you no matter what. Enjoy the blessing of having these friends. Because along with your family and loved ones it it one of the true treasures in life. (((((💖💖💖💖For Starrlight💖💖💖💖)))))!!!!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

True you all are treasures for sure. I was just being thankful for you guys right before I read you.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

You are well worth the time and effort of all of your friends. I will continue to tell you how special you are and how much your bright shining light brightens not just my world but, everyone of your friend's worlds. Have a blessed day, my trully awesome friend!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

You too!

[Catwoman2018]

Aww Starr, what a wonderful positive post and a beautiful pic. Spring is my favourite time of year, the flowers, birds, animals and sunshine, all make me feel happier. You are sending out a wonderful, powerful message, love not hate, you are an inspiration Starr, sending you love and hugs. xx ♥

[Starrlight in reply to Catwoman2018]

Awww thanks 🙏 😃 and your messages are always amazing Catwoman! I’m so glad that this time of year makes you happier. If is refreshing finally spring is here this is my kiddos last day of school before Spring break and I love having them home next to me... our plan which you will love, to go out into nature as much as we can!

❤️ ((((((((((catwoman))))))))))) ❤️

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Thank you Starrlight, we do need to learn to love ourself.

[Nom-D-Ploom]

I saw a video where a preacher was asking how you would feel if you owned a store, and a client who had paid his bill kept coming every day to try to pay again. Would it get boring having to tell him that it is payed. In. full? So why do we do it? Why do we keep trying to fix it over and over again?

[Starrlight in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Ha I guess circumstances change and we feel we still need to work on things; we are never a finished product but we do need to give it a break sometimes and just be, eh?

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Starrlight]

That is true, but I still find myself unable to rest for reliving every mistake, large or miniscule.

[Starrlight in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

I am so sorry that happens to you; it’s a very rough path when the past creeps in on the sides trying to pull you off course. I get to doing that too. Sometimes it takes too much work to be able to stay in the present it’s too tiring when we’ve been doing the work and we need a rest when the intrusive thoughts are turned on. At times the thoughts race overlap overflow. I’m having a particularly bad time with it today, I fought it yesterday and am fighting today but if it doesn’t leave soon I will be too tired and I will need to figure out how I can be helped. What helps you most when the mistakes play in your mind?

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Starrlight]

I am sorry you feel that too. I honestly didn't think these things happened to anyone else. What do I do? I write songs about it. I listen to songs others have written. I cuddle my dog. I think what I would do differently. A preacher on YouTube said that every time we are faced with a difficulty, and react badly....react in a way that harms others or ourselves; expect to face that very test again.

[Starrlight in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

I think sometimes we do need to go through tough situations over again and again in order to get it right. I believe that using music and writing songs is a very powerful approach to taming because we let it out instead of bottling it up. And it’s a safe way to let it out. So keep doing what you are doing unless it’s hurting in some way. I’d love to read some of your songs you’ve written if ever you want to share that would be great! Hang in there , okay? Keep talking.

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Starrlight]

THANK YOU! Well, this one may be a trigger, but it5 helped me not to rage in real life.....just on a lyrics sheet.

Be a good kid don't tell anyone

Oh God, is there nowhere to run?

Wonder when the hurt will be done

You'll grow up, but you'll never be young.

Smiling faces good neighbors all

Close their windows when they hear you call

Shut their eyes when they see you cry

Close their minds as they walk on by.

You'll never stop

being a victim

You'll never stop

Trying to hide

You can never let anyone close

To the secrets you carry inside

And you'll never stop trying to hide

Your father's a wonderful man

Mother's afraid or just too weak to stand

Find an escape, make up a plan

Or tomorrow they'll hurt you again.

You'll never stop

being a victim

You'll never stop

Trying to hide

You can never let anyone close

To the secrets you carry inside

And you'll never stop trying to hide

[Starrlight in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Sounds beautiful but so sad I can see why these lyrics are important to you and must have deep meaning to you.

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you! It was hard to write, but then it just wrote itself. I actually wrote a song about writing songs to deal with pain. I call it ,"Rhyming words."

[Starrlight in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Do you want to share that?

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Starrlight]

Sure:

Rhyming words to ease the pain

Why'd I trust you once again?

Rhyme the words and make them scan

Til you hurt me once again

Putting words together

While I fall apart

Wonder if I'll ever right

What's in my heart

Rhyming words to make a song

Tell the world you did me wrong

Put it down in black and white

Maybe then I'll feel alright

Rhyming words all sound the same

Tired of playing this old game

Rhyming words don't ease the pain

Gotta know you'll never change.

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