Inability to function

[Nerdo243]

I usually try to be very positive but the past few weeks I've only been able to make it to work 3 of 5 days of the week, I've been labeled part timer and lazy by my bosses and co-workers who I've explained my situation to multiple times. It all really sucks. I spend money on things i think i want to do but then never touch them or try to do anything with then as the passing interest dissipates as i obtain the object. So ive just been yelled at and not taken seriously for a while now and it really, really, really does not help. I go to a therapist, i have medical documentation, i bring in doctors notes and everything but its all pointless. I was told I could try to apply to disability since i cant get out of bed more than half of the time or hardly function but i dont want to do that.

Sorry i usually try to type more properly but im not in the mood

[Hidden]

It's really hard when you're not well ... people mistake depression/anxiety/low mood type illness for laziness ...invisible illnesses are really really tough. If you had a broken leg, people get it. You're not going to be walking up 6 flights of stairs. But when you are anxious, tired (not from staying up late one night have a fun, but bone tired, no oomph) you are sick - you are not well. And many people don't get it. They think it's the "ordinary type tired". That's like saying to someone with chicken pox .. that it's just a small itch, just don't scratch. Huh? They try to relate what you have to what they know but it's relating a stubbed toe to a broken ankle. Hang in there ... no one wants to do disability .. but sometimes it's best - if you had to have surgery, you'd take some time, so you can have a chance, to heal and work on getting well instead of feeling worse and worse. Just cause there isn't an operation, does mean you don't need to take care and heal.

Two small things that help me a bit that may be useful to you ... the thing is keeping trying small things till you find 1 or 2 that are helpful to you. We're all different but keep trying different things and if it helps a bit, then make it a little ritual and keep doing it. My 2 things that have helped a me and few people I know, is to be sure that you've enough Vitamin D. I always take extra Vitamin D (not above the recommended the amount which is much higher than it used to be) wheever I have a dip/down turn. It amazing how many friends/coworkers who have fatigue/depression symptoms have found it helps - it can give you a bit more energy simply from doing Vitamin D for a few days in a row. For me, even when I can't work (I have been there for months at time), getting outside everyday no matter what - even for 2 minutes as early as you can, helps a bit - even if you just look at the sky and clouds and the grass and the clouds.

[Nerdo243 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, fortunately I live in the middle of the woods with a bunch of dogs so I'm often outside with them, though I guess it somewhat makes me feel better, not being around people and outside. I've definitely been trying to do different things, my therapist asked me to try something before my next visit too, but oof. Theres a lot.

[Hidden in reply to Nerdo243]

Dogs are great. Dogs are much easier to be with than people lots of the time. It's great you have dogs too. Today I walked in the trees with my dog -- she's part border collie so an independent sort, not a lap dog. She loves being out and enjoys meeting other dogs and racing up and down the trails. What type of dogs do you have?

[Nerdo243 in reply to Hidden]

We have 5, all very happy dogs. 3 very yappy chihuahuas, a Panda German Shepard, and a pure bred basset hound. All they do it run around and bark at each other haha.

[Hidden in reply to Nerdo243]

I had to look up a Panda German shepherd - they look like great dogs. Sounds like you have a happy crew.

[Stilltrying_]

I am completely unable to work so I admire you for going to work on those 3 days. People just don't understand how poorly we are functioning. I can barely lift a cup to wash it and can't do my own hair etc. Try not to take it to heart what they say. They are simply ignorant of our condition and I'm sure you are doing your best. Disability may be an idea. I am on disability as I could not possibly work in my state. Gemma

[Nerdo243 in reply to Stilltrying_]

I feel this on a very oof level, only have brief flashes of being able to do things then just feeling completely out of it all the time. I'm try not to think about how others think but its always seems to be on the forefront of my mind, thinking i should be stronger than this, but it truly is an impairment. Thank you for sharing your side as well.