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[LDG27]

Life...Although, if may look perfect, it does not feel* perfect. Every morning I STRUGGLE to get out of bed. I contemplate if I should even go to work. Work makes me feel unwanted which takes a toll on me throughout the day. I do not show my true feelings, at work because then ppl might think I’m weak. Biggest mistake was letting your boss know you have depression & anxiety because then they treat you differently.

I do have my fiancé who constantly texts me showing his love & care for me. Which distracts me from work & calms my anxiety. He just KNOWS me which took 3 years but he learned how to cope with my anxiety & how to make me calm in the most stressful situations.

One things I’ve learned is to HAVE a support system/ person/ group. They make it all worth your while!

[Kat63]

It can be hard to know how much of your real self you can show at work. It’s a good thing your fiancé is there for you.

[hypercat54]

Hi yes having a support network is the ideal, unfortunately I have no support from anyone apart from online. At least you have your fiancee for support which must be a big help.

I am retired now but always struggled to get out of bed and into work. What made me go is the thought of more hassle having to ring in sick, or even losing my job. The lesser of 2 evils. x

[LDG27 in reply to hypercat54]

Oh you don’t gotta tell me twice! I’ve called in sick many times because I didn’t feel like talking to ppl. I get anxiety in the mornings which then gets me feeling sick to my stomach. It is an awful feeling, especially when I feel I can’t talk about it to my coworkers.

[Militarywife7]

I'm sorry to hear that your feeling this way, its hard to get out of that dark cloud when it gets hold of you. When that happens its hard to function in daily life ie going to work. I can relate to this post a lot. I'm going through IVF and my family have now abandoned me and created a whole dramatic scenario. I cried all night last night and questioned if I could face work with no sleep. I'm now at work and think should I tell some of my friends what im going through? but untimely feel like I would be a weak person to share my feelings. I'm glad that your partner is supportive, this really is worth its weight in gold to have somebody who cares about you. I guess my only advice would be to try and find some positives in life, wether its a walk with your partner or meeting the odd friend for a catchup as it breaks the negative thoughts and routine.

[LDG27 in reply to Militarywife7]

Yes, I will definitely be taking more walks & talk more to my family.

I too have cried myself to sleep. No one understood me or even asked what I was going through. It is tough, especially waking up dreading another day. But I fight myself on this & hear some podcasts, music or even turn on the TV as I’m getting ready. It helps!