First Post

[SadieAmelia]

Hello to whoever reads this; I hope you are having a good day. I am someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. I have recently discovered through my therapy sessions that its centered around this idea that I need to be perfect and anything short means I don't deserve to be happy or to be a part of this world. A few years ago, when COVID hit, I had just started an incredibly toxic relationship with a narcissist. I didn't know it at the time I uncovered it through the 3 and a half years we were together. At the end of the relationship, I was left more broken than I could have ever imagined. Honestly, since the start of the relationship, I haven't really left my house. I only do it when I have someone who can come with me to help my anxiety. The thought of going anywhere alone is paralyzing because to me it feels like its almost certainly going to end with me getting beaten to death or a catastrophe will happen. I also have an extreme fear of people, which doesn't help. There is so much more I could say about everything, but I just wanted to join this community to do a little bit of exposure therapy and remind myself that I can talk to people even if at first it has to be anamyous so I don't feel that overwhelming feeling that whatever I say as myself is going to be wrong or hurt the other person or make me look stupid. I hope to find a sense of community and am ready to start living again, and hopefully this is a good step one. Anyway, if you made it this far, thank you for taking the time to read all of this, and I hope you have a great rest of your day.

[jadeite11]

Hi there, well done to you for trying this. You have been through so much and are stronger for it. Are then any group you coulr join where people have experienced similar problems? It may help if you feel like it in the future. Their is some great music out there where people like Jamelia have written there feelings down and are great to sing to. I like Jessie J and Beyonce and Im sure you could find some others which is a great way to vent your emotions. There is also alot on u tube about all sorts. The othere thing I would say is do something you enjoy, so you can forget prblems for a while, read a good book, treat yourself to a nice hot chocolate, buy yourself some flowers, go for a nice walk, watch a nice film. Having a good relationship with yourself, take care of yourself for now. Give yourself time to heal. I wish you all the best x

[SadieAmelia in reply to jadeite11]

I love listening to music that connects to how I am feeling. I will definitely give Jessie J and Beyonce a try. I really like to listen to The Palace and Hippie Sabotage; I highly recommend them if you like more casual artists!

[LoveforAll41]

Good on you for getting some stuff out and welcome SadieAmelia! I think that many of us lose out on life trying to be good/excellent at something. Nobody can be above average in everything! Anyway I have had a lot of joy in being an "average" human being. It really opens life up for me to be able to enjoy being alive rather than trying to earn worth doing things. Happy day to you!

[catsrock]

Welcome! I hope you find the support you need here, it's a good group.

[alphaind]

Welcome to the group, where most of the people have firsthand experience with these. These wonderful people can share their experiences which could be helpful for you.. Best wishes

[worthytobeloved]

Bless you - thank you for your post. You are so not alone in what you are going through - I too have felt this way since I was a child, and was housebound with agorophobia for years. I'm still afraid of being seen by people because of my imperfections. Like you, when I was agorophobic, I felt that if anyone saw me they'd either be sick, call me a freak,, or even kill me. I have to cope because I live alone and don't have any help.However, as I've grown older I've realised I just have to get on with life, and usually what I worry about never happens.

I wish you all the best, and hope it gets better for you. xxx

[Icare67]

Welcome to the group! Thank you for sharing that post. Share whatever is on your heart. We are a community of understanding people who listen and care. Best wishes!