Idk how to go on

[lbrom]

Ive been struggling to much lately. I feel like I have nothing to live for. No one around me cares about me the way I care about them and I’m just so tired of everyone using me. The only person I can talk to is my therapist, but its not the same. I don’t know how long I can continue to pretend that I’m okay. And I cant tell my therapist about me being suicidal because I dont want to deal with having to tell my family. Its embarrassing and I have so much anxiety about talking about it when them so i’d rather suffer.

[-Sasha-]

You don't have to pretend. I know it isn't easy to open up but know there are people who care. If you need to talk I'm here to listen. I hope things get better.

~S~

[lbrom in reply to -Sasha-]

Thank you so much, same to you!

[pass-word]

welcome dear Iborn

you have made a great step for yourself today by reaching out and sharing the way you really feel. - So this is really a good thing! You are not alone and there is no need to pretend anything really - you feel as you feel - no judgement, Ok? First, remember that everything passes and that there are others who have felt similar to the way you are feeling right now. And there are many who have had the courage to heal themselves - everyone can find the right way for themselves - and there are many ways and no one formula that cures all pain and suffering. So you too can find your way and it might take time, dedication and self commitment to go through the motions - it only you who can eventually make that decision and find the courage to heal. I am here for you to be strong

many greetings to you

[kenster1]

you have everything to live for trust me you do.it might not seem like it just now but with you continuing therapy things will get a little easier.please don't be worrying about other people worry about yourself.dont be feeling embarrassed feel at ease a bit more that you managed to get it out in the open.

[Sillysausage234]

Don’t be embarrassed about suicidal thoughts,it’s seems like an option when things get really rough ,talk it through with the therapist your family doesn’t need to know

[Hidden]

It is so very important your trust your Therapist and be able to explain your fears and concerns, especially if you are feeling you wish to end it all, they will help and guide you through the feelings you have, you need to address your concerns and the therapist can explain coping techniques and addressing the cause of these negative feelings.

Eventually it is hoped you will eventually gain confidence and move on through your life decisions to a more positive time in your life

BOB

[Jeff1943]

Believe me Ibrom, you are just going through a bad patch, things will not always be like this.

If you ever find yourself seriously thinking about ending everything you must go immediately to your nearest hospital ER or AE and tell them everything, you will then get the right help you need.

Life is meant to be exciting and rewarding. For a moment these things have deserted you but with time they will return.

There is a reason you are here, a purpose, there are important things for you to do. Again, with time you will come to know what that means.

Until then accept all the disappointments and await the happiness in store for you.

[Hollick]

Ibrom, A&D is a cruel disease that distorts our thought process, and the sad part is we truly believe the irrationality and suffer it daily. I know this may sound bogus, even though we're all strangers (to some extent), we do care, or we wouldn't gather here and have these discussions. I hope your comfortable with your therapist to let them know what's really troubling you. Please do what I know you're capable of doing to turn it around. Find faith, "anything" that gets you through the day, and most importantly, one day at a time. God bless. Take care buddy. Thank you for being brave and sharing. You are more resilient than you probably know.😊