Finally getting help but husband is leaving me.

[NotAloneForever]

I’ve been suffering with untreated depression and anxiety. I am 32 and my illness has destroyed my 13 year marriage. We were able to get him help earlier when he needed it but due to loosing our business this summer we could afford to get me the help. I have child sexual abuse trauma that has never been adressed and sever anger black outs. I know i am sick. I know it will be a long journey to recover. I just hopped he would be there to hold me. Right now it’s day one. I know it’s only going to get harder.

[fallen_leaf]

My husband wants to separate because he can’t deal with my depression anymore although he has never sought help for his own issues and doesn’t admit he is big cause of my depression. Do you live in the US? Different states have different low cost free resources you can look into

[NotAloneForever in reply to fallen_leaf]

Yes I live in CA. My mom has offered to help. I have some savings still leftover. A lot of my anxiety was always over our business which was technically more mine but after getting laid off 5 years ago he came to help me run it but resented it. Now I have to move home and start completely over.

[RainbowKitty03]

You’re doing the right thing getting help and realizing something is wrong . I know what it feels like to want to have the person you thought would be there forever just to hold you and I know the pain you must be going through but you are not alone everyone here supports you and we are hugging you and comforting you from afar. I just want you to know that I believe in you if you can stand beside someone and watch them overcome this you can definitely do it yourself I wish you well on your journey please reach out if you ever feel lonely

[NotAloneForever in reply to RainbowKitty03]

Thank you. I needed this.

[Arniestal]

I am sure at the moment it seems a insurmountable hill to climb. But you are still very young, and to have the trauma you have and to have had your own business you must be a very strong person. You will recover and I'm sure you will be stronger, he obviously was not the right one.

[crowningglory19]

Wow, I am so sorry! He should be there for you since you were for him. You are getting help now that you can and it is sad that he isn't sticking it out. Do you have other family to be with? I know it's not the same but you do need someone to help you thru this. So sad, what you went thru, and understandable that you have stressors because of it. Well, keep getting help for you, you need to be there for you. Please stay with it and get better so you can move on in life. Hey, something that helps a lot is taking magnesium and ginseng. They calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts. Might help in your process. Hoping for the best for you!