Authentic living

[RiderontheStorm]

Bad relationships behind me and old age catching up with me. Trying to make peace with my life and who I am now, with some medical issues - not who I use to be. Starting from ground ZERO again with no support in new area but the bills are paid, I'm retired and my cats are good, if geriatric just like me now. . . :^) Hoping to move away from anxiety by living in my own truth authentically. Hoping for some travel and passion in my life again. If not now, when? More time behind me then in front of me.

[Mary-intussuception]

Cats are a blessing aren't they. 🐱🐈

Hope you achieve what you're aiming for.

[RiderontheStorm in reply to Mary-intussuception]

I love my cats and have for 30 years. Sometimes up to 4 now down to 2 in house. My 13 year old blonde Flame point - blue eyed 20 lb Siamese needs round the clock medical attention 7/24 and the financial burden is significant for feline diabetes. He is such a furry bundle of joy that makes me smile.

[Mary-intussuception in reply to RiderontheStorm]

Our cats were our 'family' . We said we'd have no more when our last 'boy' died 2 & half years ago. He was a regular at the Vets too! Used up his 9 lives and more!

Lots of memories . . . . . 🐾 🐈🐱

The house is not the same without a cat x

[AZ1970]

Well said! I am at this point myself, but a bit behind you in years. It is time to start living.

[ksquig]

Love your desire for an authentic life! Be well!

[art62grammie]

I hear you there. I am getting older as well. In my fifties now closer to sixty. I was married twice. The first was 18 years. The second 17. I have recently divorced the second man. I am not good at this relationship thing. I have trust issues. The men that I was married to both were abusive. I have a very good male friend now. Never will I marry again. I like my freedom. I do not like having to answer to people. I am enjoying life for the first time. I had been an Anorexic for 40 years. Since I was 14. I have recently recovered. Which will be a daily process. I am for once in my life free. I have learned a lot from my past. I will not let those in my past take my self-worth. Nor will anyone take my happiness. They both belong to me. Do not let those in our past keep us in bondage. We are survivors and free. We can move forward and do whatever makes us happy. You just keep on going. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. LOVE YOU AND BE A TRUE SOLDIER TO WIN THE DEPRESSION. IT CAN NOT DEFEAT YOU.

[RiderontheStorm in reply to art62grammie]

Took me a loooong time to want what I want since I spent so much time making others happy. I am not without sin for my part having come from a chaotic and dangerous childhood. I had to grow up fast to survive and with no family or support I joined the Marines at 17. It all makes sense now after having counseling. From recently surviving medical problems only because I was in such good shape from not having smoked, drank or drugs I feel like I got a second chance. I realize these upcoming 10 years is it. Do it now or you are done. Adapt, improvise and overcome. PS. I've learned never to say "Never"... LOL.