Update

[Kevin160]

Hey everyone its been a while since i joined , im feeling better now , it was a bit hard to stop measuring my bp and pulse throughout the day, i managed to do it only once a day , tonight i measured it and it was 140/80 although i didnt feel that anxious, maybe its subconious anxiety ,usually my bp is 100/60 or 110/70 but since i started suffering panic&anxiety attacks it would rise occasionally , anyway i took another reading instantly and it was much lower, im starting to think the device may not be even accurate, anyway im feeling a bit calmer because its not as scary going through the day, i dont get as much severe physical symptoms and im happier as a result , i still get these heart palpitations when the thoughts catch me off-guard but i guess thats normal , i feel derealization sometimes , that im not very awake to what happens around me and it worries me sometimes because i fear that im getting a panic attack but its getting less intense ,, thanks for the support everybody i appreciate all the support people gave me , i still have a long way to go , to stop associating every symptom with fear , and worrying about the slightest, and convincing myself that just because im stressed out much of the time that i will get a heart attack or that i wont get better because i know thats irrational , but i guess it needs time , “fingers crossed”

[Sunnidayz1]

Aw..u sound so much better Kevin.

Keep up the good work. I know the derealization feelings are scary and so weird. I know what you mean. Keep doing what you are doin. You got this!

[Kevin160 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Yes its a bit scary because i feel sort of unconcious or very confused& disoriented but i guess it takes time , thank you so much for your support these past few days

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Kevin160]

Anytime👍

[Jeff1943]

I'm glad you're making progress, Kevin. The fact that your first bp measurement is always higher than the second is quite common, I think it's a bit of White Coat Syndrome even though there's nobody in a white coat present, we're anticipating the result, then subsequent results are always lower. Some doctors disregard the first result. Anyway, it's unlikely to be a faulty meter, you hardly ever get the same reading consecutively.

Derealisation is just your mind trying to be helpful by 'removing' or distancing us from what it senses is a dangerous situation because of anxiety. Remember you can still have over sensitised nerves even though you're feeling relaxed. I used to get derealisation 40 years ago before it had ever been given a name. I just accepted it for the time being and it dispersed though I do notice it in brightly lit supermarkets.

Just accept all those symptoms for the time being, don't attach importance to them, avoid introspection, and in the fullness of time you'll be feeling good as new.

[Kevin160 in reply to Jeff1943]

Yes i guess you're right its normal, its just that usually when i feel calm its always low ..but now its a bit elevated even when im calm, and for example the reading would change instantly, for example from 140/90 to 110/70 within seconds so i was thinking maybe it was inaccurate and it had low battery or something..im trying to stay calm even though im getting ideas that i might have high bp even when i dont get nervous but im young and healthy so that is unlikely, however thank you for the advice i feel much better