A mess

[FeelingSorry]

Im 21 years old and I've had anxiety for 10 years. My anxiety causes me to be sick to my stomach causing me to throw up. For the past 2 years I've thrown up almost everyday and lost around 70 pounds. I thought if I got rid of that weight I would finally be happy. Not the case. I'm more unhappy than ever. I feel weak, my emotions are off the charts, and I just don't feel good. I can't hold a job, the fear of new relationships and creaing new relationships scares me half to death. Not one one piece of clothing I own fits me.

I feel like so much in the past was dictated by someone else, I didn't have a choice. And now I have to live with the consequences and fish myself out of this heaping mess.

Im a mess. So much happened in the past half of me wants to push everyone away and hide from everyone and not deal with this, but this is my life and I want to be in control. I want to learn. I want to be better, to do better.

[Orangeblossom85]

Hello!!!!

Tell us something about you? Where do you live? Work? School? Tell us how you spend your day. Have you ever been to psychiatrist? Psychotherapy? How about your support cycle?

[baileyf14]

I am so sorry you are going through this! This is a difficult situation. Anxiety is such a terrible thing the deal with. I have it myself and sometimes I feel so discouraged. One thing that helps me is to exercise! There is something about exercising that calms my mind down. Have you tried exercising? Maybe it will also help in your situation. I hope everything gets better.

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feeling sorry,readying your depressed state,do you know what.i had a sis with these simptons you say,i don't think you have depressen as such ,I should as a matter of urgency seek medical advice,over the things that make you sick and other of your symptons,i don't want to scare you feeling sorry,but what have you to loose,so say

you will seek advice,will you.