This week I was in a class to be certified as a cadre (the name given to instructors and all support personnel at the Army training posts). Well, Wednesday they came to do the sexual harassment and assault brief, and the rep put on a video that at less than a minute into it, I started shaking, I felt like life was being squeezed out of my heart and it was racing and of course tears started falling down my face. I could not take it even though the video was of one man impersonating offenders ideology telling a poem. Like WTH? I could not figure out for the life of me why I was having that reaction to a video that I have seen before a couple of years back.
On my way home, a memory came back to me of something that happened when I was in Afghanistan in 2006 and I was shocked...because I had completely forgotten about it, or my mind somehow put it somewhere and kept on moving. I think that being placed in an environment where the majority of the people around are junior ranking Soldiers (I just came to this place in November) combined with seeing the video quickly unlocked that memory and put it at the center, I was a junior ranking Soldier when it happened. I had been doing good but now I have this thing that I never dealt with psychologically so I am freaking stuck ☹️
Old memories 
Happy Memories
Short term memory loss
Removing clutter and memories
Morning Adrenaline Rush?
