Seeking out help

[TheMeg]

How do you get yourself to do it? I have very serious anxiety and it sends me into massive depressive episodes and I know that getting medicated is probably the right thing for me and I've even gone so far as to find a professional to talk to, I just can't ever get myself to pull the trigger and actually do it. I've been trying to get myself to do it for about 2 years and I really want to get better but the thought of trying to explain to someone what I am feeling just feels like the absolute worst thing I could have to go through.

[melantha]

It’s extremely hard for me to talk about my issues as well. The anxiety is okay to talk about, but the depression is beyond difficult. It took me far too long to seek out help because of this. Even still I find I just can’t bring myself to talk about certain things during my sessions, so I’ve had write it down. Twice so far I have written pretty lengthy notes to my therapist so that I could say what I need to. I imagine I might write more too, unless and until I can get comfortable talking about it.

[kkat37]

Maybe you should write it down and take it to the doctor with you let the doctor read it then ask you questions. Hope you are able to get help. Also there are therapist online too that do skype style appointments

[Hidden]

If you find the right person trust me they'll get it, some use other methods instead of words until you're ready, talking was a trigger for me and i would forget all the words and my head would go blank or i would start crying nonstop, they know talking about things can be hard so they'll find other ways to help

[Esther228]

Hi there, I know that it may feel scary to get help, but there is hope in having someone help you work through your troubles. Years ago, my son needed some help with his problems. My first thought was how did I fail him? Then, I realized that it is not about “me” but about “him” and that he needed some ‘tools in his tool bag’ that would help him when he had these anxiety attacks and as he worked through depression. The other thing that has helped is getting involved in church, reading the Bible, prayer, and listening to Christain music. It is so positive and has been a real comfort.

It appears that you are already taking the first step here. Do you have any friends or family that could recommend a good counselor for you? Sometimes it helps when someone else has a recommendation. I am sure thinking of you.

[Esther228]

Hi there, how are you doing? Are you feeling any better? I want you to know that I am sure thinking and praying for you.

[TheMeg in reply to Esther228]

I am feeling better. Thank you. I took some time to isolate myself from, well pretty much everything possible, and I think that helped me understand a little bit more about my anxiety.