Will 2019 be the redo of 2018 ...

[lenny_thecat]

2018 was such a shitty year for the fact that I Held Myself Back. I put my life on pause for a year because i was afraid of failing ... again. I did not want my family to know I had failed. I needed their help to get myself out of the hole i had dug for myself. I was scared they wouldn't help, I was ashamed of what they would think about me. I had let a whole year slip by before trying to fix mistake. Starting off 2019 I found myself in the same spot I was in the beginning of 2018.

Yesterday I got out of bed decided to change things i cant keep living life on pause. I talk to my family and explain what was going on. I realized my family will always be there for, they set high exception for me, but they will help me reach those heights .

I am very thankful for my family for being understanding it has always taking me a little longer to be what seem so easy for others.

[Michael8072]

Hi lenny. Sounds like your starting 2019 on the right foot! Glad you talked to your family and knowing you have their support I'm sure is very helpful. You can always come here to share as well! I wish you the best in 2019.

[AntiSocialSocialClub]

Many many people are afraid of failure and hold themselves back often. The reason they are is because they want to succeed which is a good thing. You can hold yourself back but you can also push yourself forward. It's better to fail trying and than to not try and never know. The first steps are the hardest. You don't need to take giant leaps in the direction you want to go, take little steps, crawl if you have to but always move forward. All the little steps you take each day will add up and you'll look back and be proud of the first steps you took which started the whole thing. Be patient with yourself and if you make mistakes get back up and say next time I'll get there. I'm rooting for you! Grab 2019 and make it YOUR year.

[lenny_thecat in reply to AntiSocialSocialClub]

thank you for the support, It really has brought me more confidences in knowing i have there support. I would have been having a panic attack at this point if i did not.

[fauxartist]

fear of failure is a very crippling emotion for a lot of us....so we procrastinate projects or school, or work, anything that requires our effort.....simply because of the fear of not being good enough .... set lower limits for yourself to begin with, and know that doing one small step at a time is good enough...and eventually you will gain your confidence in your own abilities and your self esteem will get better....and know that failure is just an opportunity for learning, and then you try something different. As you know ...doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results is the definition of insanity.....so get off the merry go round this year and move forward at your own comfortable pace....and stop and regroup and re-charge when needed.....

[Hidden]

Congratulations! You were very brave, you spoke your truth and it had a great ending. Keep it up in 2019 and beyond.