Having an extremely bad time, especially at school.lack of friendship ,feeling depressed even at school while everyone is having fun talking and laughing all the time. I feel like I'm different from them. I'm too serious about life. I don't think about having fun. My mind is only focused in studies and then to return home. I'm like a super straight guy. The guys in school treats me like treating gay people.
The fact is that I don't understand what is having means. I don't know guys,seriously!!!! My parents raised me with strict directions and regulations on my locality and school while others guys had fun and became free. I'm too secretive and introverted,always remains alone. I spend all day in my house while others explored my locality and new places(my parents didn't allow me to go with them, they thought If they let me, I will caught up in any danger or accident). I think this affected my character and personality during growth period. I'm a silent, extremely lazy, tensed, depressed,socially awkward,shy,lacks social skills and communication skills who has no friends and a happy life. I'm totally confused, losing hope day by day. These even affected extremely badly my academic results. If it again affect my upcoming final academic exams, my career will be over.
So, please guys, seriously, I need your support, help, advice and every thing you could give. I feels like I'm not going to live past 2019!!!!!!!!!!!!!!