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[uhtobehonest]

Hi guys. I have been battling with depression for a while now (maybe since high school) but I’ve recently started to deal with anxiety (about 4-5 months ago). Some days I feel depressed, other days I’m anxious and some days I’m both.

I’m currently in nursing school and I’m about to enter my last semester next month. I’m excited to graduate but I’m not ready to leave my college town to go back home. I am on break right now and I’ll be here for 2 more weeks and I can’t stand being at my parents house. Everyday it’s constant yelling, belittling, questioning, and demeaning. I left the house earlier and just cried in my car for a little because I’m tired of the commotion. I would say my mom is the main source of my anxiety and depression. Ever since I was young, she would talk about my weight (and she still does). We don’t really have a relationship outside of her telling me to lose weight every time we talk on the phone. I can’t be around her for too long without her saying something about it. Some days I can deal with it but other days I can’t. I’m currently on buspirone (buspar) and it was helping at school but not at home. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been suicidal in the past and I think I’m becoming suicidal again...😞

[tamka38]

Sorry u feel that way right now. Can u stay with someone else or get a room. I know how u feel my mom says bad things to me

Too. Have u ever told your mom how she make u feel? If u can’t tell her face to face write a letter to her. I think she need to

Know because she probably don’t think

She’s hurting you. Are u close to your dad

Maybe you can let him know too and you’re not alone keep reaching out and

Can u go back to your psychiatrist or doctor to let them know how you’re

Feeling is not good to keep it in and

If u feeling suicidal please go to the

E.R. Or call a Criss hotline or a text

Criss hotline at 741-741 am here for

You and sending you a hug 🤗 good

Luck

[uhtobehonest in reply to tamka38]

Yes I’ve tried telling her face to face and over text but it just goes in one ear and out the other. I don’t have a close relationship with my dad, a lot of times he’ll hear what she has to say and ignores it but for he most part he isn’t around.

I’m not able to stay with anyone besides be at home because my parents are strict. I have an apartment in my college town so I’ll be going back in about two weeks.

I see a therapist next month too but it’ll be my last free session.

I am currently looking for a job so I have a reason to be out the house for extended periods of times, hopefully that will help me as I stay here.

[tamka38 in reply to uhtobehonest]

Am with u try to keep yourself busy. Will u be helping your mom make Christmas dinner? I guess 2 weeks is not that bad

Wishing u good luck u got this

[uhtobehonest in reply to tamka38]

Thank you ❤️

[tamka38 in reply to uhtobehonest]

You’re welcome

[Xena13]

There are other meds that can give you support right now. Please see your Dr. and share all this. (ASAP) Things can get better!! Never give up!!!

[Pinkpassion in reply to Xena13]

Go to counselimy. Get away from your mother. She’s not going to change.

[pink318]

Hi- I’m very sorry to hear this. I pray that things will get better between you and your Mom.

Try to keep yourself busy while you are at your parents’ house. I hope you will enjoy your 2 weeks break from school and have a happy Christmas. I hope this forum will be of help to you to stay encouraged. We are here for you. Please stay strong and I hope you will overcome depression. You are in my prayers. God bless.

[uhtobehonest in reply to pink318]

Thank you so much ❤️ I try to go out when I can but sometimes my parents get mad when I’m out for too long