Update

[Lilo_and_Stitch]

Some of you have spoke with me about my job, so I wanted to give an update. Yesterday morning my primary doctor said she wants me out. She works for my company and got my permission to speak to some of the people higher up the food chain. Yesterday as I went to leave work the lady I work with mostly said that yesterday was the first day she had felt like I wanted to learn and put forward effort. This hurt because even though I hate it there I try everyday to have a good attitude and want to learn. Plus yesterday I was so upset I was holding back tears all day so I barley spoke to anyone.

This morning I typed a message on my phone to one of my nurses explaining I was on the verge of a mental breakdown and I wanted her to know. I then typed that I’ve been having dreams of suicide. She had me go talk with one of the other nurses in private. I broke down and cried and said everything. That nurse was upset with the lady. She said that the lady I work with and my boss are very hard to get along with. She encouraged I go home. I did but before I could go home she spoke with that higher supervisor as well and he came and spoke to me. My nurse said to him it is a hostile environment and told me that she has seen eagerness to learn in me.

I am now home waiting to hear if they’ll move me even though it’s against protocol so soon or if they will let me go.

[Hidden]

Hey there. I am so sorry you’re going through this. I’m a nurse, but I’m currently on medical leave. I know how difficult it can be when you’re new & you’re trying to learn everything. Maybe try to get through the first few weeks, it can calm down after that. You just have to get used to what you’re doing, but if it continues to be a negative environment for you, I would suggest looking for something else. Stay strong, dear. It will get better. Please don’t hurt yourself. You’re not alone. Keep fighting the good fight. Xoxoxo

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to Hidden]

It’s been over a month and keeps getting worse.

[Hidden in reply to Lilo_and_Stitch]

Oh!!! I guess I thought you just started. I’m so sorry.

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to Hidden]

It’s ok. I should have stated that

[Hidden in reply to Lilo_and_Stitch]

No no, that’s okay. Do you think you would be happier if you walked away?

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to Hidden]

I do. Today once I left work I started to feel weight off my shoulders. Being home has helped me relax. I took a 3 hour nap. I’m anxious for tomorrow though

[Hidden in reply to Lilo_and_Stitch]

Is it realistic for you to quit? Do you have a partner or someone that can help you financially until you find something that doesn’t make you so upset all the time?

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to Hidden]

My parents I think can. I’m going to talk to them tonight when they get home. I’m still living with them. This is my first real job

[Hidden in reply to Lilo_and_Stitch]

Okay, I really hope they will understand. I’m sending you so many good vibes & hugs. It’s gonna be okay. Xoxoxo Stay strong & tell your family how you’ve been feeling!

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to Hidden]

They’ve known. My dad wanted me to quit a while back. They just want me happy and healthy. Thank you for the kind words and encouragement

[clayjars]

I'm so sorry to hear your struggles at work. Work can definitely be a challenge, especially our coworkers. I'm not sure what nursing world looks like, but do you have anyone you can talk to and get some kind of objective feedback about your work performance? You may be putting the efforts in, but is there anything that's keeping others from noticing your efforts? Can they give any advices or suggestions so that you can improve? It's your first job, so I'm sure a lot of things are new for you. Keep an open mind and don't get offended if others correct you or offer advices. It doesn't mean you're bad or not good. Not all criticisms are bad, so please don't take them personally. I know that it's hard not to. I'm not a nurse, but in my profession, I am learning that I have to keep myself very open to new ideas and ways of practicing my profession. I've been working for nearly 20 years, but I'm still learning from others and always try to improve myself. Of course, you may be at a very toxic work place too, in which case you may have to go and find a new job. This is not going to be your first job or your last job, so hang in there dear~ you can do this!

Blessings <3

[Lilo_and_Stitch in reply to clayjars]

My office manager told the supervisor that the doctors team I work for is a toxic environment. Everyone else in the office has said they see my eagerness to learn and say I’m doing really good. My personal doctor wants me out of this job. She is upset they haven’t moved me yet. She highly advised that I apply elsewhere so I have been sending out resumes.