Hi everyone. I realize it's been like a week since I've checked in or responded to people... I'm sorry. Been trying to process everything & except what I can't control. The out patient program is going okay, some days harder than others, sometimes I hate it all. But it is helping.... trying to be okay with all this is going to take time. My mom called me Saturday... she feels horrible I'm going through all this. She tried to resure me she's not abounding me. She's taking the latest date they gave her for the transfer, which is the end of October. She's also hoping to be able to take October off so she can spend as much time as she can with my brother & I. It's going to take some work, but it'll get better. My sister called yesterday & we spoke for like 2 hours. Most of it was silly talk... but we did talk about what's going on. I was afraid to trigger her (she self harmed as a teen)... she resured me she was okay. That she wants me to know she loves & supports me. It was difficult, but helpful at same time. Don't think we've been that honest in a long time... I've been trying to be strong & guarded... maybe it's time to stop. That it's okay to let others in. And it's time to work on this... so ya... that's where I'm at now... a work in process. Love & hugs to you all❤❤❤
P.S. Tomorrow (8/23) is my birthday, haven't been able to think about it. Hoping to have a good day... & cake.