Why I wanted to escape..

[Lostlittlegirl_]

Hi! I would like to share my story.

So, I had a serious relationship with this guy for 2years and 4months it was a smooth relationship both of our families known each other we have the same circle of friends and we’ve known each other since our elementary days.

But, you know, I got bored. I found this this guy from our same circle and had a thing. Which is very wrong but back then I don’t give too much thinking of how wrong it is and what would the outcome be. Then, one night my “closest friend” told everyone. I was really shocked. It’s like everything fell apart I didn’t know what to do. I don’t belong to anything anymore. Everyone was throwing bad words against me. Slut, bitch, whore. Everything.

Then, after a year of not going out my house. Trying to kill myself. Deleting all of my social media. I found a small circle which is I’m very thankful. Then the following year I found this guy that accepted me.

But, sometimes, I still hear those hurtful words to anonymous people. My ex-boyfriend or ex-friends are still telling those stories. It’s been two years already. I’m feeling down again because the other night I heard it again.

I don’t know why I’m posting this. It’s just that I feel like even though I learned my lessons the hardest way and it’s been two years already people kept on pulling me down..

My mind and heart feels so down.

[Lostlittlegirl_]

Thank you for reading my story. I thought no one would understand me. Because, no one understood me back then. All they know is I’m the biggest bitch.

I don’t see myself not paying for this anymore. Especially when I hear people still talk about it. How can I rise above the rumors if they have each other and I’m alone?

Thank you..

[Hidden]

First thing you need to do is forgive yourself, who hasn't made mistakes in this life! Now you need to try to think of some happy thoughts! I'm here if you need to chat! Best of luck to you! XXX

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I’ve been trying to forgive myself for the last two years.

[Hidden]

People can be very nasty sometimes! Don't give them your power!!!

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hidden]

Oh. Wow. You’re right!

[Hidden]

Hang in there! People like that aren't worth your time and energy!!!!!!!

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hidden]

Oh my God. You’re right. But, there will be time that this can’t steady my feet and head.. But, thank you.. I will be sleeping peacefully tonight.

[Hidden]

You hold your head up high! People who seek revenge are weak, people who forgive are very strong!

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hidden]

My God. God sent me an angel tonight!!!

[Hidden]

Oh I'm far from that! However I'm very kind, a lot of compassion and loving!

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hidden]

Good to know someone like that still exists God bless you.

[Hidden]

Same to you my friend!!!!!!!

[Justswimming]

You regonized the mistake learned your lesson hopefully you apologized to your ex boyfriend... You need to put it behind you ..you've grown from it ..it wasn't your friends place to tell him she should have let you..everybody makes mistakes... Don't do it again..

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Justswimming]

I don’t think I’ll have the chance and courage to tell him personally..

I promise to never do it again. I learned my lesson..

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

The only persons opinion of you that matters is your own. If there Life is so pathetic that after 2 years you are all they have to talk about then I’d say you are something special! The best thing you can do is live your life happy. Be the best person you can be and leave them in your dust with nothing better to do than talk about you. Everyone does things in love they may regret. You have to forgive yourself and move on. You can’t change the past. It’s over. So hold your head high and give those boys something to talk about. Stay true to yourself. You do you girl and it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks.

[Lostlittlegirl_ in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

I appreciate this! I had to screen capture it so I can read it everytime I’m falling apart, again. Thank you!