I've been going through a lot lately, and I don't have many ways to relieve tension. I carry around this awful ache in my chest, it's hard to concentrate, and I spend most of the day feeling like I'm one good push away from bawling. I need to keep up the appearance of being alright for most of the day though, so I try to keep it bottled up. I know it's unhealthy, but I can't afford to breakdown during the day, and I don't have anyone to vent to right now.
So, in an attempt to be constructive, what are some good ways to calm down mid-day? I've tried meditation but I'm not good at clearing my thoughts. I fidget a lot, so I've been considering getting one of those fidget cubes to play with in my pocket or something. I'm not looking for a substitute for therapy, just something to help me get through the day until I can afford real help.