Blinded

[Quest4peace]

I yearn to notice the beauty that’s still left, because lately it’s as if I have blinders on 24/7. As such, it’s one of the most tortuous things about depression.; to deny oneself of having joy because of the inability to ‘see’ the good that’s still there.

Ive tried gratitude journaling, yet I feel like I have less and less to be grateful for each day. Therein , is another lie. Those things are still there ...my wonderful children, physical health , a roof over my head, food on the table , caring family , a few close friends etc etc. ...

Why oh why is it so hard to ‘see’ ?

[Hidden]

Good morning my friend. You're blinders are what I call the depression filter. Somehow only the negative gets through.

I've been there. I'm halfway there now.

But it passes. It gets better. Even I have trouble believing that in the midst of a depressive cycle...but it does.

You, and I, we will get through this.

And we will have good days again.

You matter my friend. You helped.

[Quest4peace in reply to Hidden]

Thank you And you don’t know how much you’ve helped me !!

Depression filter —-yes,exactly. I guess it’s the opposite of wearing rose tinted glasses. But , yes, here’s to better days ahead ....

[loveandlightseeker]

Wise words from the dear Dominic1117.

I know what you’re referring to, Quest! Just like you said it’s the opposite of rose colored glasses with depression. Everything looks bad and we struggle to see the beauty. It sounds like you have a good grasp on being able to identify that it’s your depressive thoughts trying to filter out the good. I think that’s the best thing we can do is be aware it’s not the reality, but the illness!

I pray for everyone suffering every single day! Keep looking for the light 💜⭐️

[Quest4peace in reply to loveandlightseeker]

Thank you ... wise words indeed. I pray the same.

[crowningglory19]

It does get hard to see good sometimes when we are blinded by depression and anxiety. It feels even hard to breathe when it's that way. I found that doing a cleanse, then getting pro-biotics, magnesium and ginseng in my system help a lot! We are overwhelmed physically w toxins that the stresses in life seem even heavier. I def. believe in prayer and meditation too. We are physical and spiritual beings and when one is out of balance sit effects all of it. Going outside, laying on grass and looking at stars, breathing deep in nature is great to remind us the bigness of life and get beyond the aggravations that can build up and weigh us down. I do hope you have a great Christmas season and your time w family is full of fun and good communication to build you up again! <3

[Quest4peace in reply to crowningglory19]

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply.... I've heard great things about magnesium so I think I'll try that. Wishing you the same for a wonderful Christmas! God bless