Can I be helped today?

[loveandlightseeker]

I know that no one can answer this question for me. I’m really just venting and know that many have likely been in a similar position.

I have an appointment with my therapist this afternoon and really debating on whether I should go or not?

I already know I’m depressed, irreparably sad, incredibly anxious and although I’m fighting each day I don’t know if it will help me to talk more about what is already consuming me?

I also don’t have health insurance until January due to starting a new job so I will be paying out of pocket for this which I can’t help but feel selfish about. Why can’t I handle this on my own? During this two month period of being uninsured, I have gone to the Dr. more times than I have in the last five years combined all due to my mental health issues. That adds to my anxiety.

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist Jan 2nd that I’m praying will help.

Whew, ok thanks for letting me vent! I hope everyone is having a great day. 💜

[Hidden]

I started my journey earlier this year after finally accepting I couldn't fix this...fix myself.

I have been to a therapist 3 times...we are still at the stage where sighs...then asks me questions. But just talking helps.

Knowing I am trying helps. I will see a psychiatrist on the 18th per my request.

This "thing" is tough to handle.

But as long as I'm fighting back...I am fighting.

Only you know what is best for you.

Take care...you matter.

You are needed.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. I have also seen a therapist three times but much like yourself I have finally accepted I can’t do this on my own after years of masking the issues. Your kindness is much appreciated.

[Hidden in reply to loveandlightseeker]

Just returning a favor that you did for me.

Each us will stumble...and each of will take turns asking for hope...and giving it.

You, and I, have done both.

I am proud of us.

You matter.

[Onthelake]

I’m in a similar boat as you. I don’t know how much thearepy helps, I just know that if I don’t go I feel like I’m just sulking into myself but if I do go I feel like I’m at least trying to do something active to fix myself.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to Onthelake]

Same here. Thank you so much for your reply. 💜💜

[kenster1]

hi I hope come January everything goes well im sure it will mind you.be open and honest about all your troubles at your first chance.even although miracles don't happen overnight just lifting that burden from your mind will help no end.try think more positive about your new job and that might help with some of the things that get you down in life.new year approaching new job and hopefully new you.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to kenster1]

Thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement. It is so appreciated 💜

[6ixtyon1]

Firstly, kudos to you for making it 2 mo. w/o insurance...that should not be happening, at all; but, we all know what the reality is, and why some folks who don't understand want to keep things that way...not your fault, at all!

Go to your therapist and talk about how things are going to change in January with a new position--and, I hope, medical coverage! If you can just briefly list what's really bugging you, right now, in order of importance, this could help both of you get off to a good, efficient start!

Light and love to you, on your journey...keep us posted and let us know what happens! A new job and a new start sound super! :>)