Sorry if this is really rambling… and doesn't really have a point or question...
I had my scheduled monthly appointment with my psychiatrist today. This was after having a really bad episode back on Sunday. He upped my dosage of Abilify. He also recommended that I seek therapy at a county-sponsored mental health service. (He also recommended that I severely curtail consuming alcohol, but more on that later.)
I don’t know why but the suggestion of getting low-cost, “talk” therapy is making me feel even more anxiety. I know my anxiety is getting more and more generalized but this seems weird… especially since I was wanting therapy before he suggested this. I think part of it that I’ll have to provide some sort of proof of my limited income and I just don’t know how I’ll go out that. “Paperwork” has ALWAYS upped my anxiety levels… not sure why.
The business about curtailing (or severely limiting) alcohol is weird, too. I guess I’ve always been defensive about “drinking vs. sobriety” and I’m not even sure why. I know that alcohol is a depressant… I guess I was less aware of it causing anxiety. I think part of my issue is that (until some recent episodes) I HAVE cut WAY back on the amount I consume… so, I guess I’m finding it discouraging that I’m supposed to cut back even more.
He even gave me a prescription for naltrexone… which I think I’m going to need to make second post about…