I haven't posted in awhile so I thought I should give an update. Life has been extremely chaotic, my parents are moving across the country ( granted I'm 22 but I feel a sense of abandonment), my grandfathers cancer came back so now he has two cancers, and on top of that finals are in two weeks.
SO yes, my life has been really messy but through it all I am finding a sense of gratefulness for everything around me. It's almost like I'm okay being comfortable. This is a new feeling but a good feeling.
I have been attending weekly group counseling this semester and I can't stress enough how much it has helped me. I strongly encourage people try therapy because even though my life is a shit show at least I am finally content.