Some of you have spoke with me about my job, so I wanted to give an update. Yesterday morning my primary doctor said she wants me out. She works for my company and got my permission to speak to some of the people higher up the food chain. Yesterday as I went to leave work the lady I work with mostly said that yesterday was the first day she had felt like I wanted to learn and put forward effort. This hurt because even though I hate it there I try everyday to have a good attitude and want to learn. Plus yesterday I was so upset I was holding back tears all day so I barley spoke to anyone.
This morning I typed a message on my phone to one of my nurses explaining I was on the verge of a mental breakdown and I wanted her to know. I then typed that I’ve been having dreams of suicide. She had me go talk with one of the other nurses in private. I broke down and cried and said everything. That nurse was upset with the lady. She said that the lady I work with and my boss are very hard to get along with. She encouraged I go home. I did but before I could go home she spoke with that higher supervisor as well and he came and spoke to me. My nurse said to him it is a hostile environment and told me that she has seen eagerness to learn in me.
I am now home waiting to hear if they’ll move me even though it’s against protocol so soon or if they will let me go.