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[Roscoe78]

I have been battling depression and anxiety since I was a teen. Almost 35 years. A few years ago I was hospitalized for trying to commit suicide. I got better. Have been for about 7 years now. I recently have been through some traumatic issues and have been going downhill for the last year. I finally reached out for help but it won't be until January. In the meantime I'm spiraling out of control, my husband don't understand, my family don't understand. I lost my job due to me not having a handle on myself. Can someone please tell me what I can do till I can get to see the dr and get back on meds. My support system is nothing. My husband calls me crazy and tells me I have issues. We know this already. He's mentally and at times been physically abusive. I just need to be OK until I get to the drs...it feels so far away. By January they may just be having my funeral instead

[tamka38]

Hi Roscoe78 Am sorry your family is not very supporting especially your Husband

if u been going through depression and anxiety for so many year’s your family should be understanding. Do u have any friends? Please stop beating yourself up

is not your fault that u have depression or anxiety. Exercise is great and yoga 🧘‍♀️ and meditation u should start eating healthy and start taking B-12 fish oil pills vitamins D or a multi vitamins drink a lot of water and try finding new hobbies to do and we always know helping others makes us feel a little better. And please don’t give up on yourself you will hurt a lot of people and just think about like this if u was feeling great for that long u can get there again here a text Criss help line 741-741 and u should checkout y’all mental health hotline where u live they should be able to help u and if u feel like u can’t go on please go to the E.R. For help. And everyday write down what you’re grateful for it helps a lot and am here for u whatever and please keep reaching out to us on this site and 💕💕💕remember you’re not alone we all in this together and we all have a story to share and remember to put your needs first and give yourself a lot of self love ❤️

[tamka38]

Good luck sending you a hug 🤗

[Roscoe78 in reply to tamka38]

Thank you so much for responding. My family has never really been understanding of what this is or what I got through. They get it but they don't GET it. My husband don't get it at all on any level. I had a job in the ICU. Helping people. I couldn't get a handle on me, I cant help them. I lost my job. I am gonna be doing yoga until I get to my dr appointment. Thank you again

[tamka38 in reply to Roscoe78]

Working in the ICU is a stressful Job and maybe instead of looking at it a bad way maybe u do need sometime to rest and please give yourself a lot of self love u really deserve it and drink relaxing tea Am here if u need me

[Roscoe78 in reply to tamka38]

Thank you. I'm on the journey to self love as I type this. Its where it's all supposed to start..loving yourself? If we can do that most of our problems will end. At least that is what i hear

[tamka38 in reply to Roscoe78]

Am on my journey too. Am tired of putting everybody over myself done that for years is time for me to be happy in my own skin and loving myself I never done but am learning daily to be the best person I can be and I just want to be happy 😃 and travel the world 🌎

[bridder01]

Welcome to the site Roscoe! Sorry to hear what you're going through. There are lots of wonderful people here and we're all ready and willing to listen. You'll find a lot of support here

[foreverbeach11]

Hi Roscoe. I’m sorry you are having a hard time now. The forum is here to support you during this difficult time. Please consider calling a crisis hotline if you need immediate support. I know January seems like a long way away. There is hope you will be able to see the doctor and get the help you need. You are in my thoughts

[dogginess]

It sounds like you could have used the services of a good hospital as a respite

and for neuropsychological help. You sound like you are living in an unsafe environment

and need to consult with at the VERY least a competant social worker. The police and a judge sound like they may be in order too. Domestic violence, i.e. harassment and assault

are unacceptable.