Hello friends. I'm a young male in his super early 20s, finished college, work in healthcare making close to 6 figures as a new grad, I work out, and I buy nice semi-casual/formal clothes. I did everything askmen reddit told me to do to be attractive, and im still depressed and miserable. I hate my self. i feel like im subpar to my white friend. Literally every chick we come across looks at him in admiration. He cheats on girlfriend and keeps getting new hook ups faster than I can buy stocks (and lately ive been buying pretty fast) . My therapist told me thatll change in the later 20s, but that still makes me feel terrible because I feel like i'll just be life's metaphorical cuckold either way. I just came off a 5 year long relationship and im not privy to the idea of flings (not like I had a chance anyway). I feel like every time me and my white friend walk into places im the last place loser. Im the last option. The lowest tier beta male because i can't stomach the idea of using women like him and the other successful alphas.
I also grossly dislike my 20s because everyone loves drinking and hooking up and all i wanna do is going to my friend's house, buy some wings, watch some basketball, and binge COD just like we used to. But they've morphed into frequent bar go-ers and sink lots of money there. I just walk around miserable and i often get panic attacks at home thinking about social situations. Only now is it being controlled with prozac but I still panic hard core when I think about social gatherings. But I just feel like the social world is out to get me and its like "witches at black masses". I feel like the world around me is fake. But I still feel socially inferior, and all I do is sink my money in stocks(target date fund to be more specific) to compensate for being such a loser. Anti depressants don't stop me from feeling like a good for nothing human either :/. All I want to do is just be alone :(.