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[fire_blood_24]

Hi everyone, I'm new here.

I was just recently diagnosed with depression and have started taking medication for it. I personally feel like they were helping for awhile but not to long ago I started cutting myself and having suicidal thoughts. I haven't been able to focus as much and I have also stopped caring about thing's I should like school, spending time with family and friends, and honestly I've stopped caring about myself like I should. So I joined this site to see if there is anyone that I can talk to that has gone through or is currently going through similar situations as me because I personally don't like talking to people around me that I know in real life and it often makes me uncomfortable to talk about these things to those people.

[kenster1]

hi and a very warm welcome to you.i too suffer from depression and thoughts of calling it a day but I keep fighting on.at some point we have to take a step back and say hey this is me and live with it the best we can.im sorry I cant help you in terms of cutting but you should try and divert those urges with something else.talking to someone for the first time is the most difficult but people have to know in order to understand and try and help you.medication is not a cure it just help ease your suffering and we have to do the rest in terms of trying to overcome it.please talk to someone it really will help along with the support you get on here.

[fire_blood_24 in reply to kenster1]

thank you for your words of advice. i will continue you to try to fight and will also try reaching out to others that i know i can trust about everything. so that the might better understand how i feel.

[kenster1 in reply to fire_blood_24]

no worries just glad that your now reaching out even if its on here.its the first step forward in the right direction I hope.i know lots of us say we will fight this but its probably better to think hey I can live with this.when we start accepting how we are and how we feel it does get better.letting it out to people who understand is vital in your recovery people would understand.it only takes one persons words of wisdom to set you on the right track again just to give you that lift and belief we all need.keep strong.

[fire_blood_24 in reply to kenster1]

again thank you for these words, they truly mean a lot to me and you said "it only takes one persons words of wisdom to set you on the right track again..." not only your words but some other people that i have talked to on here have also helped. i will try to keep opening up and i hope that you are also able to stay strong through lifes hardest moments and if you are ever down read the words you have given to me and most likely to other people... they really are helpful and can change a persons day for the best.

[Hidden]

Welcome to you.

X

[fire_blood_24 in reply to Hidden]

thank you

[Agora1]

fire_blood_24, I want to welcome you to this support group. There are many who

can relate to what you are going through. I just wanted to add one thing. You mentioned

school, antidepressants and suicidal thoughts. Sometimes young people may get an adverse reaction to the antidepressant they are on making these thoughts more prominent. The fact that it worked for a while and now is going the other way, I would suggest you talk with your prescribing doctor just to be sure it's not the medication doing these.

Someone is always around to talk with you and support you when things get rough.

This is a very caring support group. We want to keep you Safe. x

[fire_blood_24 in reply to Agora1]

yes, my doctor and i have kinda talked about adverse reactions to the meds, they said they wanted to try a certain type because depression runs in my family and they all take the same meds for it. the selfharm was something ive thought about long before anyone in my family realized that i was struggling with this. as for the suicidal thoughts those are mostly new and my doctors have kinda talked to me about this but i am also being checked in the next couple of weeks for another condition ( i dont remember what its called ) but i have kinda pushed myself more and more to talking with people.

and thank you so much for the words, i dont know if you know how much small words like that mean to me, many of my friends are sort of like me with being down and constantly upset and so it really helps to see more than just people in my personal life that i know are there to support me and talk me through everything.

[Agora1 in reply to fire_blood_24]

I'm glad you are working closely with your doctor in addressing these concerns. It takes a professional to guide you on the right path but know you are never alone.

We will help support you because we understand you and because "we care" x

[AZ1970]

First of all, welcome. Are these symptoms new with the medications? Some medications can make things worse. I had that happen recently. Please let your doctor know what’s going on. I hope you get some relief.

[fire_blood_24 in reply to AZ1970]

unfortunately these symptoms are not new, i've been fighting not to cut for the past 8 months but kept it to myself because many things were already happening that were kinda hard in my personal life dealing with family and things like that. I stayed strong for 8 months then finally gave in about 3 weeks ago which wasn't long after I started taking medication. but the suicidal thoughts have been coming and going for about a month or two now, i really don't know if it's the medication or not but i will try talking and pushing myself to be more open with my doctors and close family/friends.

[Hidden]

Welcome to this wonderful site.

I joined only a few days ago, looking for hope...and found it.

I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

[fire_blood_24 in reply to Hidden]

thank you so much. everyone here has been so helpful and said things that have been extremely helpful.