I'm new here...

The past 3 years have been a whirlwind of extremely high highs and extremely low lows like never before. Well at least, I'm more aware of them these days. I felt like I was stuck in autopilot for so long, living life in ways that really didn't align with what I believe and how I choose to mold my existence. I let go of/gained love, married my awesome wife, made the choice to be a full-time creative, quit my 8-5, joined the world of entrepreneurship, denounced the religious beliefs I grew up breathing, and now I'm here. I'm trying to navigate and make sense of each of the aforementioned because they all bring something slightly foreign to me. I'm trying to unlearn the things that aren't conducive to my moving forward and learn new, better ways living life and not just better ways of coping.

The problem is I feel like a stagnant observer, watching myself uninhibitedly live life. I have SO MANY repetitive thoughts about the things I should and could do; I just want to do them fully and consistently now. I see myself creating SOMETHING every day, but in reality it's every other day that can turn into every other week. I have great opportunities right now personally and professionally, but I'm drawing a blank on what/how to do something about mostly everything that's up to me to change. I know I'm capable of being active in living my best life. I'm trying to drive forward, but some things internally are stuck in neutral.

[fauxartist]

I'm glad your here, and understand the emotional roller coaster your talking about. Your writing is very intuitive and astute so you express yourself and your needs very eloquently. I was going to suggest something about not worrying too much about what you don't get done with your projects and prioritize what project you most want to do first. Then take the time to do it the way you want to, doesn't have to be perfect, just feel you did your best. Then move onto the next project and if need be, take a breather and think your next project through a bit, or just do something completely different to give your brain a break and watch or listen to something that just makes you relax for a bit. I find I'm more creative after going on a drive and looking at nature, shooting a few shots and then going back to my projects. Everyone's different. I also garden when the weather permits...kinda just feels good to not think about anything for a bit, just how pretty the flowers are looking.

By the way, there are lots of posts about how others here, including myself, have the emotional ups and downs...and how they cope with them, some with therapy, some with or without meds., and some have other coping mechanisms that seem to work well.

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Thank you so much, for reading and responding. I'm going to take heed to your words and switch things up and really try to relax. I'm also going to read through other posts, to see what helps. Thanks again!

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

by the way, I really like your work...it's very eclectic which I like....

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Thank you, I ran across the semicolon project, and inspired me to get out of my funk that day and create . I layered cut pieces of cardboard, paint and other found materials. There's a whole concept in my head about what it all means. I needed color that day, thus the finished product.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

I love found art....very creative of you....I absolutely love that your doing something positive and creative...it truly helps I think, your having fun doing it which releases endorphins and then you have positive feedback from others...win win...your a good example to others here as to how doing something artistic can help us with our stuff, anxiety, depression, self esteem issues...etc. looking forward to when ever you get your next project done...but mostly that your having fun doing it.

[gerg]

I have worked hard to come to a conclusion that has helped me a lot.

"Right now, everything in my life is exactly as it is meant to be". The shoulds and oughts in life are totally irrational. It is now, I am here, other than that I know nothing. I accept my world exactly as it is, because I don't know how this story ends.

[Hidden in reply to gerg]

I'm writing this on my whiteboard as soon as I press reply. Thank you for sharing with me.