Scared and sick

[Bjo51]

Recently I have been diagnosed with dementia or a disease similar to it. I'm waiting for a specialist in January. I was with someone for about 30 years. The last two years with him were rough. I felt like his caretaker, the dr. I think got him hooked on pain meds. We had problems with his aggression previously but the last time I couldn't take it anymore, he hurt one of my girls again. My girls are adults now. So we called 911 and had him arrested. Before that happened I knew something was wrong but he kept me running to dr's for him. Even when I said I couldn't drive him I did because he said he already took his meds, oxy and or morphine. I wouldn't know something was wrong for sure except we were in a car accident, he was driving not me. I got some abnormal cat scans back.

Now I'm living with one of my girls and she drives my car to work and everywhere because I have fallen asleep at the wheel before. I told her she is still too young to be tied down taking care of me. Instead of being grateful I'm starting to feel angry at her. I feel as if she has taken over. Now she wants to move her girlfriend in who I never liked.

I dont know what to believe anymore. I was pushed out of my job from taking care of everyone else. I came from a depressed home where my mother was always depressed. We never had enough money, clothes or food. I enjoyed working that we as my outlet. I'm sorry if I rambled on too much.

[BUDGIEBURDEKIN]

Sometimes, it is better to try and put your past behind you, and Your daughter helping you all she can to care for you, is her partner really that bad? You are blessed that someone wants to care for you, I it’s better than having NO CARER and your daughter is doing it for you out of LOVE.

DO PUSH HER TO HARD OR SHE JUST MIGHT NOT COME HOME AGAIN. XX

[Bjo51 in reply to BUDGIEBURDEKIN]

Thank you, I agree with you. Some days just become overwhelming to me. Do you feel that way sometimes? Even though I don’t think as clearly as I used to I still have to come up with budgets to keep the house going. Sometimes it takes me 3days to do what used to only take half a day. I appreciate the advice and will listen to it.

[Bjo51 in reply to BUDGIEBURDEKIN]

I hope you have someone to help you out. Thank you and bless you.

[froggymom88]

For sure there are good days and then some bad days too. There are many children who don't want to help parents when they are in need, so you are blessed. I'm sure she is not moving in this person because you don't like her, but when circumstances and health change then every one involved have to give and take a little. You did a good job raising your daughter. She is there for you. I will be praying for all of you.

[Bjo51 in reply to froggymom88]

Thank you and I will also pray for you

[froggymom88 in reply to Bjo51]

Thank you. Prayers I can always use. If you need to talk I will check back here.