I have extreme anxiety and depression.
I am struggling to live each minute- literally each minute
I only sleep a couple of hours each night.
I have lost a lot of weight and look ill
I am married with 2 children. I do not know what to do. My children don’t know. My wife is in denial about the seriousness of it.
I don’t want to be hospitalised- it would kill my children. I don’t want to take my own life- that would be worse. But I feel I am literally wasting away. Stomach in knots. Running on adrenaline and cortisol day and night.
I cannot sleep. I have no ideas left