Is this normal?

[samjon1]

As in my previous posts, it is uneasy for me to make conversation with some people particularly those in leadership positions. For example my final year project supervisor, the rship wasn't health, my uncle at home, leaders at Church, even at work. I most of times feel they see me as someone who humiliate them and as if I want to be the leader. Me I accepted Jesus as my personal saviour in 2011 and I don't want to do anything that displeases Him but when I think of all these things, my fear is not entering heaven because am anti social, humiliate leaders, proud. I can converse with my age mates but no relationship with leaders, I even feel these colleagues of mine will discover me with time to come and abandon me. I can't explain everything now because I am in bed failing to do my work