Alone and confused

[LuciMoose]

I really dont like myself anymore. I feel like this always happens and I'm always going to be in this loophole. I feel happy, and I move on to something that makes me happy, and I end up here again. I dont understand why im not happy.

I recently got into an argument with a friend, my only friend currently, if I cant still call them that. I just moved. And they mentioned not feeling like they were even a friend to me, because I always talked about my problems to them.

I dont have the mind space to clearly even explain the facts of what i know happened. It feels like my head is clouded and all i can feel is an ache of something I dont understand. I dont know what I'm feeling. I was going to explain everything in detail, but i dont think i could.

What do i do? How do i stop feeling empty? How do I make sure I wont repeat this same process? How do I become happy again?

[Indigo-ivy]

Hi 👋🏻

I just want you to know that I can totally relate to what you've posted ! 😩❤ I go through the same cycle time and time again ! It's like I just won't allow myself to be happy ! When happiness is taking over me or starting to come back into my life , it's like BANG ! Here's a load of self destruction to stir things up ! 😩 I don't know the answers as I'm trying to find them myself! 😔 But please know that you are not on your own in feeling and acting this way ! 💗

Sending lots of good vibes , peace & love your way ! ✌🏼❤

[PapillonLove in reply to Indigo-ivy]

Hi, I can somewhat understand what you shared. I can be feeling more happy, then some "sad" thought or happening will step in. Then, it's as if someone just poked a hole & "let the air out"; I can feel so "defeated", all over again! I've learned to Positive Talk with Myself, in trying to push the sad or negative thought away, (otherwise referred to as "Stinking Thinking"). That is easier said than done, as it takes practice over & over, but it does get easier. At times, so much backfires or "hits me", one thing after another, to the point it seems like everything is against me. I try to stay strong, keep realistic, and just take One Day At a Time, doing the best I can with each thing or negative thought as it comes up. I really hope I've been even a small bit helpful to you. Take in a couple of Big Breaths & Blow Out Slowly.......Sending you (on this Rainy day, LOL), Sunshine, Butterflies, Hugs & Love. Know we are here, Under That Same Big Sky, Reaching Out to Each Other with Love & Hope!

[Indigo-ivy in reply to PapillonLove]

Sending you lots of good vibes 💗 Peace & love my friend ✌🏼❤

[Hidden]

Hi, I'm sorry you're going through the up's & downs, stinks doesn't it? Are you getting any help for you. If not please do , you're special, there's only one you! I'm here for you. I hope you have a joy filled day. Love, peace, light & hugs!

[Hidden]

I’m sorry you’re going through a low time at the mont x hopefully you’ll be able to open your heart and talk here as we are all here ready to listen x

[Rexj]

I feel like your friend and I understand what they're going through it's just they miss you and can't hang out with you anymore and also you are busy sometimes and not being able to talk to them like you used to... Did it happen if so be the first to talk be more conversive and talk to them or text them more send dorky selfies and call them once in a while and they'll feel better and cause the root fear is down you will get better too