UPDATE:
I would like to clarify a few things I have noticed. 1) I am fully aware I am a female. However I identify as Demi-Female. Meaning I lean more towards female. AGAIN HOWEVER, I am androgynous meaning I fall in between male and female.
2) I am not confused about who I am. I am fully aware. I understand biological there are two genders however the spectrum of gender is beyond physicality. But anyways! GOOD NEWS:
Today I came out fully to my boyfriend. He is very happy for me and proud to be with me. The next step for me is pronouns and my name. It’s not like I dislike my birth name, I’d just feel my comfortable with a more neutral one. But I’d like to stick with the beginning of it which is MAD. If you have any suggestions I am open to them 😊 thank you to those who are supporting me my journey of discovery.