Severe OCD?

[Tado]

Anyone with OCD have a debilitating fear of schizophrenia and psychosis? How can you convince yourself that you aren’t approaching either?

Currently I’m freaking out because my ears ring and from my mental breakdown a few days ago it made me have violent intrusive thoughts. Then they just kind of stopped, like an episode... Not to mention that I have light and sound sensitivity which I guess can be a sign of schizophrenia developing. In my childhood I swore I heard voices in the fan. But haven’t since... Plus my family has mental health history so I feel like I’m at risk...

I go to a CBT (therapist) for the first time on Monday but it’s been taking over my brain for weeks and really disrupting my life and relationships.

[CazO46]

Hi Tado, life sounds really tough for you right now. I don't have your condition but my mother had OCD for as long as I can remember. She managed to control some of the compulsions as she got older and did not develop schezophrenia . I understand your fear but hopefully you will be able to share these with the therapist and alleviate some of the worry . Take care X

[Tado in reply to CazO46]

Thank you l, I appreciate it!

[RobynC]

I think the severity happens when we give wayyyy too much power to our thoughts . Thoughts are just thoughts ! I get intrusive thoughts too! Just remind yourself you are not alone and ur thoughts don’t mean anything .

[Tado in reply to RobynC]

Thank you! I’m just terrified of causing myself to downfall further... I go to my therapist today. I’m oddly excited!

[RobynC in reply to Tado]

That’s good ! Talking helps ! I find my friends to be the best therapy !

[RobynC in reply to Tado]

Also always remember the mind believes whatever it is you tell it ! If you tell yourself you are going crazy , you’ll believe it ! Gotta fill that mind with positive thoughts ! I wake up every morning and tell myself I’m amazing ! 😊

[Tado in reply to RobynC]

That’s why I fear schizophrenia and psychosis because I can totally make my mind do that and with my OCD and anxiety, I wish I didn’t have that power.

[RobynC in reply to Tado]

You just got to try to train your mind ! You do have the power

[RobynC in reply to RobynC]

It’s not easy but it’s not impossible

[Tado]

UPDATE: My therapist said there’s WAY more signs of schizophrenia and psychosis. Especially social markers like lack of friends or ability to socialize etc. Then the typical “If I think the thought is crazy, I’m not schizophrenic since I have insight.” Feeling a bit better. Of course, therapy is not a quick fix but very happy about the slight improvement. He also mentioned my “spells” are just a “new” type of anxiety attack for me. Who knew?!