Hanging by a thread

[courage_50]

Lately I feel like I’m hanging on by just a thread. One thing after another keeps pushing me closer to the edge. I hurt so much. Deep down, soul crushing hurt. I’m so tired of ppl letting me down but I can’t stop trying. I’m just that kind of person. But I feel like it’s slowly killing me. I think in black and white so it’s hard for me to find a middle ground with this. If I stop trying to be that nice person than I go back to bad behaviors than lead to hospital stays that would probably lead to divorce this time. I don’t know what to do. It’s been so rough lately. Will it get better soon?! I don’t want to have hope. 😭😭😭

[Rexj]

It'll be ok you're just going through a rough patch everyone has that just move on with life and let it lead you to happiness and don't give up ever

[courage_50 in reply to Rexj]

Thank you ☺️💜

[Rexj in reply to courage_50]

My pleasure

[IheartDogs]

I hear your cries, I know how hard life can be. You said that you keep trying so that says you're a fighter and relentless in the battle. When the worst days happen, a better one is next to come so keep moving forward and never stop trying. You are worth all the effort 💞

[courage_50 in reply to IheartDogs]

Thank you ❤️

[MT2018]

We all have rough patches. I can't say I've had the best week of my life either! You aren't alone. It's awesome that you love people so much, and those of us who love sacrificially often forsake our own needs. For me, I've found that self-care is critical to avoid being too close to the edge of despair. If I eat well (no junk) and exercise and take walks along water or woods (hard to do in an urban city, but I find patches)-I have alot more energy to expend and the impact of other people's issues and comments is far less than if I'm tired and have no me time and am on toxin overload from eating garbage. That's my thought. Another thing I've learned (also being a black and white, all in or all out person) is that I can be all in on loving them unconditionally, but my emotions don't need to be all in. It takes time to figure out how to do that. Do you have a support group and also a group of supportive people outside of a formal support group? We all need people and some guidance. Hope you have your people surrounding you! Hugs! Today is a new day! How are you this morning?

[courage_50 in reply to MT2018]

Not doing good at all. Actually thinking about going to the hospital. Husband is trying to get home sooner so he can be here with me. I went off antidepressants months ago thinking I could do it without them but I think it was a bad idea. Have a drs appointment tomorrow morning to get back on something. Trying to hang on. I have no support system other than my husband & a very few friends that are far away. I spend all my time alone except for the weekends when my husband is home. I have a chronic pain illness that keeps me from doing much physically. Thanks for responding. I appreciate your input ❤️

[bw333 in reply to courage_50]

We r here for U. I am home alone too during the day.

[JkBrauer]

Hello Courage,

I that is good that you do not give up! Keep it up! I find it interesting that in your last sentence that you say; "I don't want to have hope." Is this a miss print or do you really , not want to have hope?

Hope is so important and vital for a persons well being and giving purpose to live. Finding Hope for My Heart | Focus on the Family Here is a broadcast of finding hope in a storm of life. I hope you will find reassurance here.